2:30 PM
its been three days since i updated. i told you that i wont blog that often now.
tomorrow is the malay paper. wish me luck people. seriously, i just find it like a normal exam paper currently. bloody ass. i need to revise and it have to be soon if i want to do well on my malay paper.
mid-year results suck. i passed only 2 subjects. the worst result i ever get in my whole life and my parents/my older siblings have not find out about it. darn it.
yes. a short entry today. i'm just lazy. =P
11:30 AM
my 333 post today [:
i just got back from my school sports carnival/sports' day. ive decided to run finally due to not enough members and its my last year in this school. fyi: we're the only representative for rushmore for the B Division Girls'. its been a year since i've participated in this event and happily, we managed to get 2nd placing, how good is that? not to my suprise that everest got 1st. they got good runners i must say. congrats to them people.
&& i saw elmo everywhere. bloody ass. my good friends told me that he dyed his hair and he looks like "mat rep". oh, who doesnt know about that? but ironically, on the bus back home, i kept thinking about our past. i have to admit that somehow, i have not move on yet. yes, i do not think about him that often like i used to do but then, he's still lingers in my mind when i'm at home or in school or in the public. just let say everywhere. how sad to hear about it ]:
&& also, i have some doubts about my relationship with bayang cause i seriously still wanna remain single for some unknown reason. i just have that feeling recently. do you think that i like my relationship with him just going on like this till i dont know when with no string attached? you must be kidding me. its a waste of time, i tell you.
i think alot today i guess. i'm off from here. i need my rest and my happy thoughts will be back with me again.
3:00 PM
this will be a short update.
finally, my baby tooth is out. i went to the school dentist yesterday. i didnt know that it hurts that bad seriously. i used to love to go to the dentist to take out my tooth when i was younger. back when i was in primary school. they tried suggested me to take out my other baby tooth too on my left upper jaw but then i vigorously shaked my head and screamed no. cancel the word scream and replace it with a said [:
been going home late recently. maybe going out again later after the sports day to search for kaya's present. talking about sports day, i MAY / MAY NOT run as i'm lazy to do it. blamed nabillah for putting my name at the list.
MT O LVL written paper is on monday. gosh.
i'm off to the stadium now.
6:30 AM
good noon people. i'm back again as i need to over-flow my thoughts for today.
yesterday incident make me realised something. something that i think wont happen to me again after my recent break-up with elmo. yes. i seriously like a guy all this while without knowing which is after so long, i've been denying to myself that 1) i'm not good enough for him, 2) he's too good for me and 3) i want to be single so that i can date ALOT of guys without having any worries. i've kept hurting him over and over again, which is the worst one was yesterday and now i'm afraid to lose him. i was stupid then that i didnt try to appreciate him nor even coming close to treasuring him but now i do so yeah, i love you [:
anyway, maybe i'm going out today to shop though i'm broke and i'm still figuring it out who to ask along. i cant go out with any other guy cause i know i gonna break someone's heart but thats the only choice i got. i hope he doesnt mind with it again. bear with me sweetheart aite.
i'm off from here. i havent eat my breakfast & lunch yet. toodles people.
1:30 PM
seriously, i dont know myself anymore. i've change negatively. i thought doing all that wont affect me. i thought i was numb to all the pain and no more late night worries due to the break-up but i was wrong. i feel more guilty hurting someone's heart and keep on lying to someone else. do you think i'm that bad? sorry for the things that i've done to you. i hurt you more than i thought i would and more than i know but some things are just beyond my control. sharina stop relying/blaming on fate now. i know i can do some thing about it like i should tell him now, from the start but i dont think its the right time. so just stop asking me to do that cause i will repeatly say "its not the right time yet"
its been awhile since i've updated and that was like one week ago. i dont think blogging is my thing anymore. lets see how it goes later on for this blog.
i'll be out tomorrow again. when can i stop this and start concentrating on my studies even more? only god knows. XD
thats all for now.
11:30 PM
i'm so frustrated with some people. i'm not naming their names though. i saw one of my favourite underground band in someone playlist in friendster. that someone is like one of my friends but we're not close as we do not talk to each other before in school but she had graduated last year. i'm not being unreasonable or something but please, let it be underground. by putting there, you're making it into something mainstream as people will be listening to them. you think putting "cool" songs on friendster, will make you appear cool then fucked off you fat ass.
anyway, today is marking day so no school for me. going out later with the divas and some of my girlfriends to vivo. seriously, they wanna give me a birthday bash but i'm scared that i will get angry instead and start beating them back. LOL. meeting bayang after that, so yeah [:
yesterday was fun but tiring. went to watch spiderman 3 with bayang at shaw orchard like at last. the show was good. then went boat quay as usual. we didnt do anything much the whole day yesterday as i was tired for unknown reason. thanks for the presents && for spending time with me on my birthday. i appreciate it alot for those times you were there for me like yesterday.
i'm off from here. batgirl needs to fly XD
9:30 AM
today was fun. watched anna judge april with wan and aaron for the first time as roy's band performed. yeah. they were great. didnt watch the whole gig as the third band was boring. no offence. i was looking forward with the ocean avenue band cause you know, i know. its the song title from yellowcard. okay. that is super random. but their band were the last one to perform so yeah, i didnt manage to see them.
i am irritated that my ear-piece is spoilt and i cant do anything about it. but thanks to dad that i got a cheap-skate ear-piece to use for now. i dont want to spent any money on some good ear-piece which ending up, spoilt after a month. anyway, i'm broke currently so i will buy a brand new one when i got some cash to spare and i got nothing better to do.
btw, i hate it when sharin's friends/friend-friends say this especially in front of me in public.
guy A: "hey, thats sharin's sister"
guy B: "which sharin?"
guy A: "you know sharin. sharin who lives near geylang there."
guy B: "oh that sharin. dhiya's ex huh?"
guy A: "yeah" then nodded away.
i hate being know as sharin's sister/twin. we may be twin but we're totally opposite. like seriously. his friends are his friends. my friends are my friends. we are different people, having different life paths with different mindset. you get it. WE ARE DIFFERENT.
honestly, i'm waiting for 12 midnight to come.
*like finally, 30 mins later*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARINA. HAPPY SWEET 16. DO YOUR BEST IN O LEVEL . HAVE A SUPER SWEET/NICE/UNDERSTANDING/FRIENDLY BOYFRIEND LATER.GO AND ENJOY LIFE FOR NOW.
so now, i'm officially 16 years old && i'm old already. thanks to those friends who had wished me especially those who took an effort to buy me present. hey. you people doesnt need to do all that. i love you people very much and i'm glad to have friends like you all [:
11:30 PM
my main reason for posting here at noon when i got the whole day to blog is because i'm just bored.
my birthday is like just tomorrow. its my 16th birthday && already, i feel so old. sadly, i'm super short so i guess i dont look like 16 but instead 14. haha. time flies and i'm graduating soon. o levels is coming up pretty fast and they told me its sweet 16. what the heck.
yes. i'm still single and going to be single till the end of o lvl which is on november. i love single life alot now. more guys i'm flirting to/dating to but honestly, no one really capture my heart. only bayang that i find so far is the only guy that is sincerely super sweet to me. [:
somehow or another, i miss elmo. i dont know why but i think its only been 1 month and 8 days since we broke up. oh yes. i took the courage to send him that text message last two week ago and till now, i got no distraction from him. i'm happy about that part and also its great that i've moving on about him slowly cause i no longer care about him like i used to. finally!
in the evening later, i'm going to artshouse for roy's peformance. hopefully, i will have fun there with aaron coming along with me too. tomorrow, i'm out with bayang. monday, its me with my girlfriends to vivo. the coming friday, catching a movie after school with juline and sumedaa. so my plans are tight this week.
all of this are random. you think i got alot of things say uh?
12:30 AM
its been a long time since i've updated. yes. its been a week. been busy with mid-year exam and going out with "friends". anyway, today is the last paper. so yeah. lets go out and celebrate.
&& my birthday is coming up real soon. my schedule is tight these weekend and monday. i may go out today even. lets see whether i make it or not to meet bayang-bayang today cause i'm not feeling that well. bloody running nose. i got it since yesterday, F&N paper. i also feel like i'm going to have fever soon or something like that. damn it.
btw 100 %, i going to flung my science and maths. i think F&N too. oh who cares. =P
i'm off. nothing much to say anymore.
12:00 PM
its friday && yes, the weekend is up but sadly, i got no plans cause i would be staying home or out to study. that is my main focus for right now. like as if.
chemisty was difficult just now. even for those people who studied for it, said the same thing. as you can guess correctly, i didnt study any single thing for chemistry. oh who cares. other papers were so-so. i cant wait till next week then the exams are over.
&& my birthday is coming up also. i dont need anything special or expensive for my birthday from you people. just a wish on my special day, its already enough for me. seriously, i would be glad about it.
its been a month since i'm single.........
i'm off. i got a new friend to talk to in msn right now.
8:00 PM