i lazii too blogg.. thiss thursdaee gortt mathss testt thenn onn fridayy gortt geo test.. haiz... thenn donn knoww whenn gortt englishh testt butt i knoee itss gonna bee thiss weekk.. andd soo sowiee too eeuu... :(... i reallyy donn meann too bee angryy att eeuu.. reallii... i thinkk i gott thiss moodd swingg thiss feww daess... orr iss itt thatt thingg comingg?? aarg... hahahax.. i'mm sttubornn i knoee... andd i doo andd sayy thingss withoutt thinkingg whenn i'mm angryy.. i reallii doo.. pleasee donn bee angryy withh mee.. pleasee... haiz.. i thinkk... i think thatt itss betterr forr uss too goo separatee wayss.. no moree off thiss sufferingg.. noo moree miseryy.. butt i knoww youu gonnaa thinkk thatt i gortt likee anotherr guyy iff i sayss thiss.. orr youu will thinkk thatt itss justt ann excusee... haiz.. whatt too doo.. whatt too doo.. michellee cutt hairr.. yupp.. i thinkk shee lookss plumperr whenn shee lett downn herr hairr... :x.. oopss.. hahahax.. wannaa endd heree thenn.. fromm myy sharpp shatterr piecess; i'mm sowiee...

If Only You Know
11:32 AM

aarg!! tomoroww, skooll iss startingg andd i havenn doo anyy off myy homeworkk yet... ohh geek... neberr mindd... aniwayy yesterdayy eveningg, i wentt too a weddingg... itss myy brotherr fiancee thee cousinn... andd i donn knoww herr... ohh geek.. i donn havee a appetitee too eatt.. hahahax.. andd i sitt theree drinkk waterr whilee waitingg my mumm andd sis too eatt finishh... haiz... thenn afterr thatt, wentt windoww-shoppingg... in casee youu guyss didntt knoww, itt wass heldd att geylangg seraii... andd i wentt windoww-shoppingg too seee "bajuu kebayaa" sincee myy eldestt broo iss gettingg marriedd inn... 4 monthss timee... yupp... cann believee itss comingg nearerr... aniwayy beforee wee wentt homee, wee wentt too KFC... youu seee... youu cantt separatee mee andd myy KFC ritee... hahahax.. reallii, wee wantedd too goo too macd.. butt itt beenn closedd downn andd sincee thee KFC iss nearr theree, soo wee decidedd too goo KFC insteadd... hm... i wass scaredd andd excitedd causee i knoww thatt cheee kiann iss workingg theree... beforee goingg inn thee KFC, saww weii kiatt [myy prii skooll frendd]... butt hee didntt see mee... lucky... phew... andd thenn myy sweett dreamm appear... cheee kiann wass theree... ohh geekk.. hee wass thee cashierr servingg thee customerr... aaarg!!! in casee somee off youu guyss donn noee watt relationshipp betweenn mee andd chee kiann havee iss thatt wee weree oncee togetherr andd hee brokee upp withh mee becausee off otherr gerlss... yup.. myy bitterr pastt memoriess comee too mee againn... butt i'mm nortt thatt saddd animoree... noo moree off thatt worthless tearss.. noo moree off thee miseryy... haiz.. aniwayy, i suddenlyy gott thee appetitee too eatt.. hahahax.. myy sis andd i wass queingg andd shee queue att chee kiann theree.. haiz... andd itss ourr turnn nextt.. i keepp onn sayingg too myy siss thatt i feell likee buryingg myy headd too thee groundd andd knockedd itt againstt thee wall.. hahahax.. butt eventuallyy, hee did noticedd mee butt wee actt as iff wee donn knoee each otherr.. hm.. aniwayy thiss feww dayss, i havee a feelingg thatt eeuu startingg nortt too likee mee.. i knoww eeuu cann sayy itss justt myy stupidd intinctt butt i reallii feell itt... noo matterr watt i doo, youu gett angryy.. doo i deservee thiss kindd off treatmentt?? haiz.. i havee enuff off thiss worldd.. tryingg too bee someonee thatt i usedd too bee... myy lifee havee beenn soo miserablee thiss yerr... i neverr feell thiss wayy beforee... haiz.. enddingg heree... withh brokenn lovee; fallenn mee...

If Only You Know
1:30 AM

yup.. soo longg neberr updatee heree... feelingg soo tiredd thesee feww daess... hm.. yesterdaee i gett myy mathss testt resultt... yupp.. iff youu guess soo.. i faill... andd i faill baldlyy... donn wantt too mentionn howw muchh i gott.. yupp.. todaee iss goodd fridaee soo donn needd too goo schooll... i'mm boredd... todaee wakee upp soo earlyy.. i supposeddlyy too goo withh jesslynn andd the galss todaee.. goo bugiss i thinkk andd takee neoo-printt sincee herr berthdaee iss coming.. i lazyy too goo... butt itss gonnaa bee funn... i knoee.. hm.. michellee andd himm breakk upp... yupp.. i feell sadd forr themm... michellee!! iff youu readd thiss, i wantt too tell youu somethingg... YOU HAVE CHANGE!... totallyy changee... i thinkk youu noticee itt.. dontt you? haiz... neberr mindd.. wannaa endd heree... havee a gudd daee.. andd tata!!

If Only You Know
11:31 PM

i'mm deadd againn.. aaarr.... myy hp bill wentt upp againn... aarr... suree kenaa scoldedd byy myy mumm againn... aarr.. i'mm deadd causee shee gonnaa nagg att mee... aarr... butt itss partlyy myy faultt.. soo havee too blamee myselff forr itt.. i thinkk i'mm nott gonnaa smss anionee thiss feww weekss sincee myy mumm donn trustt mee againn andd shee warnedd mee lastt timee... aarr.. butt i will tryy myy bestt too msgg youu guyss secretlyy withoutt herr knowledgee... ohh okk.. justt noww, wentt homee quitee earlyy thenn usuall... wentt homee alonee.. yup.. havee myy ownn personall timee.. er.. still feelll soo guiltyy aboutt myy hp bill... i'mm deadd.. butt shee havenn reachh homee... hopee i fall asleepp byy thee timee shee reachh homee fromm workk.. aaar.. i thinkk i will usedd thee phonee onn mondaee, thursdaee, fridaee andd sundaee... iff i doo likee thiss, att leastt myy bill wontt bee alortt.. wantt too knoww howw muchh myy bill iss... askk mee yourselff.. hahahax.. wannnaa end heree.. feell guiltyy ritee noww whenn talkingg too myy broo.. byee!!

If Only You Know
12:08 PM

yup.. i'mm boredd soo decidedd too update heree againn... er.. finallyy findd a cutee skinn forr myy blogg... yup.. nortt reallii thee onee i lovee butt i still likee itt aniwayy.. er.. tomorrow, skooll starting.. yup.. boring.. still habenn doo ipw projectt causee all off myy memberss iss slackingg... ya.. i reallii donn knoee whatt too doo... i donn caree.. theyy wannna faill itt... thatss they'ree problemm.. justt noww, i watchedd thiss showw calledd "laguna beach" onn mtvv... yup.. there's thiss guyy namedd "stephen"... hee wass cutee!!! ya.. cutee i sayy.. hot.. andd cooll.. ohh geek!!! hahahahax.. still habenn doo myy geog causee donn knoww howw too doo itt... i reallii donn knoww... hm.. noww, watchingg taill daterss onn mtv againn whilee doingg thiss thingg... yup.. verii nicee showw.. hm.. leftt somee mathss homeworkk causee itss verii hardd too doo.. wannaa endd heree.. wee... gudd eveningg!

If Only You Know
9:14 AM

yupp... changee myy blogg layoutt again.. mee lastt timee layoutt onee suddenlyy all thee thingss lostt.. donn knoww whatt happenn... soo mustt searchh alortt off thingss backk.. aarg!!! soo frustratingg... donn knoww whatt happenn too thee tagg... aarg!!! havee too findd backk all myy friendss linkss againn.. aarg!! i thinkk thiss layoutt goonaa bee temporaryy soo thatt youu guyss cann see andd alsoo i cann findd all thee thingss backk againn.. er... I'M BORED!!! anotherr twoo moree dayss, skool iss startingg... arrg!!! soo fastt... still habenn doo miee geographyy homeworkk.. arrg!! i hatee thiss lifee... aarg!!! wannaa eatt miee breakfastt now.. byee andd havee a gudd dae!! :)

If Only You Know
2:50 AM

elloo.. lazii too updatee todaee... yupp.. wentt outt justt noww withh themm.. walkk theree, walkk heree... nortt reallii thatt tiredd... andd againn, i changedd miee blogg song... yupp.. itss sungg byy kellyy clarksonn caleedd hearr mee.. i reallii likee thee songg butt thee lyricss nortt reallii meaningfull.. butt overall, i still likee itt.. er.. gortt mathss homeworkk again.. siann... beforee i endd, i will bee puttingg hearr mee lyricss ok...


-hear me by kelly clarkson-

eeuu gottaa bee outt derr
eeuu gottaa bee somewheree
whereverr eeuu are, i'm waitingg

causee theree aree thesee nights wenn
i singg myself too sleepp
andd i'm hopingg miee dreamss
bringg eeuu closee too mee
aree eeuu listeningg?

-choruss-
hearr mee
i'm cryingg outt
i'm readyy now
turnn miee worldd upsidee downn
findd mee
i'm lostt insidee e crowdd
it's gettingg loudd
i needd eeuu to seee
i'm screamingg forr eeuu too pleasee
hearr mee
hearr mee

hearr mee
cann eeuu hearr mee?
hearr mee

i usedd too bee scaredd off
lettingg someonee inn
but itt getss soo lonelyy
beingg onn miee ownn

noo onee too talk too
andd noo onee too holdd mee
i'm nortt always strongg
oh, i needd eeuu heree
aree eeuu listeningg?

-choruss-

i'm restless andd wildd
i fall, but i tryy
i needd someonee too understandd
cann eeuu hearr mee?

i'm lost in my thoughts
andd baby i'm farr
forr all tatt i'vee gott
cann eeuu hearr mee?

-choruss-
hearr mee
i'm cryingg outt
i'm readyy now
turnn miee worldd upsidee downn
findd mee
i'm lostt insidee e crowdd
it's gettingg loudd
i needd eeuu to seee
i'm screamingg forr eeuu too pleasee
hearr mee
hearr mee

hearr mee
hearr mee
cann eeuu hearr mee?
hearr mee
hearr mee
hearr mee
cann eeuu hearr mee?
oh, oh, oh, oh...
hearr mee
hearr mee
hearr mee

If Only You Know
12:25 PM

yup.. mee updatingg heree again.. i'mm boredd att homee andd myy twinn broo habenn wakee upp yett soo betterr writee noww orr elsee i wontt havee thee chancee too writee heree laterr... er..yesterdaee, reachh homee ardd 11 pluss.. yup.. wentt homee alonee.. i'mm nortt scaree att all.. butt myy sisterr keepp onn pesteringg mee too sleepp overr herr housee causee shee worriedd thatt someonee wouldd kidnapp mee... yup... soo stupidd ritee...butt i stubbornlyy tell herr thatt i'mm nortt a primaryy schooll kidd anymoree... i'mm moree grownn upp now.. hahahax.. yup.. wannaa bee independent sometimess... :)

yah.. aboutt yesterdaee show, it wass nicee... i keepp onn fidgetingg onn myy sitt causee thee personn whoo see inn frontt off mee wass tall... arrg!! orr iss itt i'mm too shortt.. hahahax.. aniway, thee showw wass dividedd intoo twoo partss... thee first partt off thee showw, wass aboutt alladinn, sleepingg beautyy, snoww whitee, beautyy andd thee beastt, mulann andd mermaidd whilee thee secondd partt wass all aboutt cinderellaa... yup.. i wass soo happyy causee i lovee herr soo muchh moree thann off all thee princesses... butt donn thinkk thatt i'mm totallyy crazyy overr herr causee i'mm nortt a lesbiann tho...i lovee thee gownn shee woree whilee shee skatee.. itt iss soo beautifull... i wishh too wearr itt onn myy weddingg daee... hahahax.. itt hass beenn myy stupidd wishfull dreamss sincee i wass small... yupp.. cantt blamee mee forr thatt... hahahax... andd whoo gonnaa bee myy princee charmingg thenn?? i donn knoee.. onlyy godd knoess... hahahax... thee firstt partt wheree thee alladinn andd jasminee singg a songg whilee skatingg, i wass feelingg sadd.... ya... sadd... nortt happii... i thinkk byy thatt momentt, i wass missingg him... er... cann bee... butt whenn theyy singg, theyy aree soo romanticc... haiz.. untill noww, i still crazyy aboutt thee gownn thatt cinderellaa wore.. IT IS SO NICE!!!

aniwayy, laterr goingg outt withh myy familyy.. yupp... goingg outt againn.. tomorroww, gortt remediall alreadii.. haiz.. goingg outt withh michelle, herr bf andd him.. haiz.. and I FEEL SO LAZY TO GO... hahahax.. soo fastt thee timee fliess causee anotherr 5 dayss, schooll iss startingg.. yupp... me endd heree.. gudd dae!

If Only You Know
5:01 AM

i'mm boredd soo comee heree andd updatee.. erm.. laterr, goingg outt too watchh princess classicc onn icee.. yup.. sincee itss free, justt goo.. soo anionee whoo wannaa msgg mee att miee hp, plz... i begg youu... donn msgg mee causee i'mm nortt bringingg alongg myy hpp... i'mm soo soriee... i wishh too bringg itt butt myy mumm doesntt alloww causee scaree i will lostt itt.. ya.. mumss nowadayss... doesntt trustt theirr ownn childrenn.. butt maybee itss thee bestt forr uss... onlii godd noess.. i will replyy youu guyss msgg butt itss gottaa bee latee.. ardd 11 pluss att nightt off coursee.. afterr thee showw hass endedd... erm.. i gott a bruisee att myy elboww.. yup.. noww, itss achingg whilee i writingg heree... haiz.. i accidentalyy bumpp itt att myy livingg roomm tablee... ohh boii... itt hurtss... butt noww, nortt thatt painn... still cann standd itt.. haiz.. yesterdaee, myy goodd freindd suddenlyy treatt mee soo coldlyy duee too "someonee" tellingg himm somethingg aboutt mee... i reallii donn knoww whatt i doo.. i reallii dontt... alwayss gett blamee forr thee thingss thatt i didntt donee.. it iss fairr forr mee... wishh couldd justt bee alonee withoutt anyy friendss soo thatt i will nortt havee a miserablee lifee... haiz.. i hatee myy lifee... itt hurtss mee deeplyy inn thee insidee.. butt still...haiz... neberr mindd... i needd too gett changee noww... havee a gudd daee!

If Only You Know
4:17 AM

wee... justt finishh readingg thee bulentinn thatt cassandraa postt.. hahahax.. soo lamee.. i thoughtt it iss a ghostt storiee butt itt turnn outt a verii lamee onee.. ok i summarisee thee storiee forr youu guyss too readd.. there iss a youngg mann calledd sam whoo hass too workedd OT forr three straightt dayss onn thee 7th month of Chinese Lunar calenderr.. firstt daee, hee wentt homee ardd 1 am thenn hee waitedd forr thee buss forr 20 minss thenn hee boardedd a doublee deckk buss thenn hee saww onlii a oldd womann.. butt whenn hee wantedd too goo too upperr deckk, thee womann toldd himm thatt upstairr verii dangerouss soo hee listenss too herr andd nothingg happenss too himm andd hee reachh homee safelyy... thee 2ndd daee, hee wentt homee ardd mid-nightt soo hee tookk thee samee doublee deckk homee andd hee saww thee samee oldd womann againn butt whenn hee wantedd too goo thee upperr deckk, thee womann advisedd himm thee samee thingg andd hee still listenss too itt andd nothingg happenss too himm whenn hee reachh homee... thee 3rd daee orr cann sayy thee lastt daee, thee samee thingg happenss too himm.. butt thiss timee, hee didntt listenss too herr andd wentt upperr deckk andd sitt att thee backk partt off thee buss forr 30 minss butt nothing happenss thenn hee wentt downstrairr andd confrontt thee oldd ladyy andd askedd herr whyy she kept saying it's dangerous upstairs.. thee ladyy staredd att himm andd repliedd, "upstairs dangerous. upstairs got no bus driver".. soo lamee rightt... yupp.. i readd thiss kindd off thingyy too fill myy boringg timee.. wannaa endd heree soo thatt i cann eatt my dinner.. gud eveningg...

If Only You Know
11:12 AM

I'M BORED.. I'M TOTALLI BORED AT HOME.. wishh couldd justt goo outt butt too badd thatt itss goingg too bee darkk byy 2 hourss moree.. hm.. thiss tuesdaee, i'm goingg thee princess onn icee att expoo.. ya.. itss kindaa childishh butt itss myy sisterr treatt soo justt goo theree andd enjoyy thee showw orr is itt i wishh i couldd enjoyy itt.. hm.. i donn knoww.. i prayy thatt i donn needd too sleepp overr att miee sisterr housee causee i will bee boredd too deathh theree andd havee too entertainn miee niecee iff i sleepp theree.. hm.. I'M BORED.. noww, miee stomachh iss grumblingg.. oh shitt.. i havenn eatt yett.. byee andd havee a gudd daee todaii..

If Only You Know
9:37 AM

wee... i justt reachh homee.. haiz.. soo tiredd... justt noww, abtt 6 pluss, wentt too skooll too gett myy reportt bookk withh myy mumm andd sisterr.. i wass preetyy dissapointedd withh mieselff abtt myy mathss gradee.. i wass frustratedd.. butt noo matterr watt i doo, nothingg cann changee thee markss soo i justt lett itt goo afterr all.. afterr thatt, wentt too compass pointt too eatt miee dinnerr.. eatt att thee kfc andd itt wass preetyy crowdedd butt nothingg cann separatee mee withh kfc.. hahahax.. aniwayy, i broughtt a brandd neww shoee.. ya.. i wass happii causee i wantedd itt forr soo longg andd thee shopp wass havingg a salee.. soo youu guyss cann guess thatt i'm gonnaa bee thee firstt onee too buyy... hahahax.. justt kiddingg.. butt thee colourr off miee shoee iss nott watt i reallii wantedd.. haiz.. soo sadd.. causee all thee shoee i likee donn havee miee sizee.. too badd.. butt no matterr watt, i still satisfiedd withh watt i gott.. justt noww, duringg thee mathss lessonn, gortt mathss testt.. andd i forgott too learnn itt.. ohh shitt.. itt wass damnn difficultt evenn chiww foongg sayss thatt too.. amm i ritee chiw foongg.. hahahax.. i wass stuckk alortt off timess andd leavee somee blankss.. i donn caree.. i'mm surelii gonnaa faill itt.. andd wateverr.. thiss thursdayy, i gott remediall evenn thoughh itt iss holidaee.. soo unluckii..k lahh.. wannaa sleepp.. gudd nitezz..

If Only You Know
2:43 PM

thee lyricss off thee songg thatt i've putt inn heree..donn noee watt happenn withh thee marquee... haiz.. somethingg wrongg i thinkk.. soo heree itt goess..

-lookingg inn-

eeuu look at mee andd see thee girl,
whoo lives insidee thee goldenn world..

butt donn believee,
thatss all theree iss to see;
eeuu'll neberr knoee thee real mee..

shee smiles through a thousandd tears
andd harbours adolescentt fears...

shee dreams off all,
thatt shee cann neberr bee..
shee wades inn insecurityy
andd hides herself insidee of mee..

donn say shee takes itt all forr grantedd,
i'm well awaree of all i havee..
donn think thatt i am disenchantedd..
pleasee understandd..

itt seems as though i'vee always beenn,
somebodyy outsidee lookingg inn...

well, heree i am forr all of them too bleedd..
butt theyy cantt takee miee heartt from mee..
andd they cantt bring mee to miee knees,
theyy'll neberr knoee thee real mee...

If Only You Know
12:24 PM

wee... i'm boredd... i'mm too lazyy too updatee... wee... changee miee taggiee.. mee sian.. sian.. tomorroww, i diee.. causee myy mathss filee gott prob andd somee off themm i habenn finishh doingg thee correctionss.. suree mustt stayy-back.. luckii onlii twoo worksheetss.. yeah.. i'mm soo luckii.. wee.. mee endd heree.. gudd nitee..

If Only You Know
1:40 PM

mee justt finishh changingg michellee blogg skinss.. haiz.. verii tiredd.. miee handd iss achingg rightt noww.. hatee mahzuz mann.. keepp callingg mee as iff hee iss myy bf.. geek!! i will neverr imaginee miee-selff too bee hiss gf.. aarg!! hee soo disgustingg.. aarg!! hahahax.. hee soo irratatingg.. thiss morningg hee alreadii calledd mee twicee.. aarg.. andd hee gonnaa call mee laterr att aroundd 1 pm.. haiz.. iff hee gott nothingg betterr too doo thenn donn keepp callingg mee lahh.. soo irratatingg... aarg.. i wantt too runn awayy fromm him.. i donn caree iff hee sayy i'm cruell.. soo watt.. hee reallii gettingg onn miee nervee.. eeek!! thenn hee calledd mee forr noo reasonn.. haiz.. i hatee himm too thee coree.. goo away fromm miee lifee lah.. goo andd bee closee withh miee brudderrr likee lastt yearr.. i donn wishh too knoee yoo aniimoree.. i reallii hatee yoo.. noww, i knoee thatt alortt off peoplee hatee mee.. i wonderr why... theyy donn knoee mee yett butt still theyy calledd mee namess.. i hatee itt mann... iss itt miee faultt thatt yoo guyss hatee mee.. too thatt gerll, i reallii donn knoee whatt hadd happenedd butt still youu hatee mee.. even thoughh i feell guiltyy andd havee apologisedd too youu att miee blogg, youu still calledd mee namess.. iss itt fairr forr mee?? i donn knoee anithingg andd gett blamee forr everithingg.. i neverr doo anithingg wrongg att youu andd youu still hatee mee... haiz.. miee lifee iss soo unluckii... hatee too bee mie-selff.. reallii hatee itt.. youu guyss tryy too bee mee andd youu will knoee howw muchh painn i havee butt still, i justt keepp insidee andd hidee andd i will surelii putt onn a fake smilee... i reallii thoughtt thatt youu aree soo innocentt andd nicee butt thenn i foundd outt thatt youu hatee mee andd i donn hatee youu causee youu donee nothingg too mee soo whyy mustt hatee youu forr noo reasonn.. cann youu tryy too bee reasonablee.. iff youu still likee himm thenn tell mee.. donn needd too calledd mee namess.. i will sarcrificee forr him soo thatt youu cann takee himm backk.. i donn wishh too havee anii enemiess.. i reallii doo.. haiz.. wannaa endd heree causee wannaaa checkk miee friendsterr.. byee andd gudd morningg... :D

If Only You Know
3:48 AM

hm... mee siann att homee soo decidedd too updatee miee postt.. noww, i'mm alonee att homee causee miee twinn broo goo bbq att eastt coastt withh somee off hiss classmatess.. i'mm supposedd too goo too chiokk wehh andd kellyy berthdaii partyy todaii butt too badd, i cannott makee itt causee i havee too takee caree off miee housee.. hahahax.. reallii wishh too bee theree butt too badd i cantt.. too badd.. soo sad.. hm... sincee justt noww, i keepp thinkingg off him.. perhapss i reallii miss him.. geek!! donn tell mee i fallingg deeplyy inn lovee withh him.. geek!! i hatee whenn i fall inn lovee causee i believee thatt thee deeply eeuu fall forr a guyy, thee moree itt hurtss laterr onn.. yesterdaii whenn i msgg himm, i'mm tryingg too openn upp thee romanticc off sidee off mee evenn thoughh i hatee too causee itt gonnaa bee soo mushyy.. haiz.. i reallii cannott sayy anithingg.. noww, i feell thatt hess thee onee i reallii likee inn miee heartt.. aniwayy, i thinkk i donn havee anyy feelingss onn cutee-cutee cousin animoree causee recentlyy i havee lostt touchh withh himm sincee commonn testt hadd startedd andd noww, thee commonn testt havee finishh, i still neberr msgg him andd recentlyy, i didntt saww himm inn skool duringg miee recess.. aniwayy, i foundd outt thatt i failedd twoo subjectt, sciencee andd lit, butt nortt thatt badlyy causee bothh i gott D7 onlyy att leastt betterr thann F9.. butt i still havenn gett miee geographyy... i gett C6 forr miee englishh, C5 forr miee malayy, B4 forr miee mathss andd A2 forr miee d&t.. hahahax.. hopee too gett B3 forr miee geographyy causee i will gett thee complete sett off gradess.. hahahax.. i'm soo happii thatt i improvee onn somee off miee subjectt esp. litt.. wannaa endd heree.. causee wannaa lett miee broo usee thiss compp.. byee andd tata!!

If Only You Know
6:15 AM

wee.. updatingg miee postt todaii.. wee.. hee sentt mee homee todaii.. wee.. i'm soo happii... butt whenn i reachh homee, i suddenlii likes himm evenn moree afterr i foundd outt yesterdaii thatt hee reallii lovess mee whenn wee arguee yesterdaii.. ya.. ya... iff youu guyss knoee, itss miee faultt againn.. hee wass sadd thatt i didntt talkk too himm much.. haiz.. i reallii donn havee anithingg too sayy andd hee thoughtt thatt i donn likee him anymoree.. haiz.. boiss nowadayss alwayss thinkk likee thiss.. haiz.. todaii, i andd chiww foongg talkk too eachh otherr soo thatt wee cann solvee ourr problemm becausee ourr problemm iss quitee similarr.. thee differencee thatt shee brokee upp withh him alreadii whilee mee still withh himm.. hm.. hee keptt askingg mee whetherr i likess him.. andd i justt keepp quiett.. hm.. wannaa knoee why.. itss becozz i donn knoee whichh too sayy; i still likee you orr i still lovess you cozz i'mm afaraidd thatt whenn i sayy i lovee yoo noww, hee will endd upp gettingg hurtt laterr onn iff i breakk upp withh himm somedaii andd itt gonnaa makess himm feell soo sad.. haiz.. saww farzanaa andd farhanaa insidee thee buss butt too badd, i didntt talkk too themm causee hee wass sittingg besidess mee soo theyy justt smilee att mee onlii.. hahahax.. habenn msg himm yett todaii causee myy mumm havenn reachh homee yett.. haizz.. soo sad.. letss comee andd talkk abtt miee examinationn.. hm... soo farr i onlii gett malayy, english andd sciencee.. malayy andd englishh justt pass andd miee sciencee failedd byy 1/2 markk.. haizz.. wastedd butt att leastt i donee miee bestt... haiz.. mee wannaa endingg heree causee i still havenn doo miee homeeworkk.. good byee andd gud nitezz too everyonee.. :D..

If Only You Know
2:02 PM

frustratedd withh miee twinn broo.. keepp onn disturbingg mee whilee doingg thiss postt.. keepp onn tappingg onn miee armm andd actingg likee a stupidd guy.. argg!! frustratedd!!! frustatedd!! argg!!! hm.. beforee wentt too avaa, i wass sadd.. ya.. sadd.. nortt angrii... i toldd asraff seriouss abtt thee thirdd partii thingyy... geek.. actuallii, i wass att thee canteenn andd i saww herr walkingg too ourr wayy butt thatt timee, hee wass walkingg too anotherr tablee.. thenn i see themm.. haiz.. miee lifee iss soo complicatedd.. wishh i couldd justt endd everithingg... noo moree troublee.. noo moree worriess.. haiz.. afterr thee thirdd partii thingyy thenn thee problemm involvingg thee secc onee gerll scoldedd vulgaritiess att mee arisess... haizz.. afterr onee problemm, onee problemm arisess.. wishh too endd withh himm.. causee whatt asraff seriouss saidd too mee justt noww iss truee.. i reallii sadd... reallii.. i givingg itt all i can, itt wasntt enuff forr eeuu... haiz.. sob..sob.. wentt homee withh mahzuz andd ashikk sincee fazrinn neverr comee too schooll causee hee wass sickk.. haiz.. wantt too endd heree.. i'mm damnn tiredd withh all off thiss thingss inn miee lifee.. wannaa sleepp causee tomoroww gortt ava dutyy.. tata!!

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12:30 PM