6:00 PM
i've just open a new blog for the latest skin that i've done so you readers can view it yourself. and i'm really love the new skin that i just edited today. though, it is simple yet i find it totally nice. AAAARRGGG!!! so azuu, i hope you love it also. btw she's my first fan of my skin. i started to develop some liking towards pictography photos.
i cant wait to my darling sweetie tommorrow.(:
i gotta go now. going out with family. toodles.
7:05 PM
wello XD
just now, the first paper that i had for mid-year. not enough time to write composition cause i dont know what to write about trust. difficult to decide and end up, writting about friends. summary was quite difficult. but it would be easier for those who loves watching soccer cause most probably you will know what they actually asked for.
i started to love my blog's song. MEANINGFUL. remind of my past. yeah. i know i should move on about it but my past would always be a part of me and my life. the lyrics is below this entry btw.
i'm going shopping with nura soon. yeah. been saving up. cause i wanna buy that skirt.
my mum doesnt allow me to go thailand for the school trip. i dont care. i still wanna go!!
i miss my sweetie. i cant wait for sunday to meet him (:
boredom. toodles.
5:30 PM
"Midnight Highway", Daphne Loves Derby
Your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night,
This idle hour just wont pass.
I've never missed you this much, never thought I would,
Didn't think you'd feel so far away.
Your summer perfume is still blowing through this hallway,
Autumn's amber red shadows dance.
I miss our midnight rides, on highway 18,
18 is gone.
So go past the lights and all the excuses.
You could have left, sincerely yours.
Don't you think it's obvious that I want to say more?
But anything too daring to say to you,
Will be said in this letter, then burned away,
So you never realize, I'm here.
I'm thinking of your vague reply,
So I can understand,
Why we put this at rest,
Why we forget to,
Say that we were leaving,
And say that we were sorry,
The past remains unspoken,
As this vacant night is dying.
But I still miss your summer perfume.
This cold air brings in such a distance to us,
Such a painful distance.
But I'm still waiting for you to say, you hate me now,
So I don't have to,
Hold on to this burning heart,
This burning heart is getting old,
It's getting old.
While sitting on this cold kitchen floor,
Head down to hide the tears,
I've realized, I've finally realized,
That you were never,
You were never meant, for me.
5:00 PM
harlow my dearie peeps(:
its been awhile since i've blog. i've just finish my IT lesson. and yeah. i'm still in the school com lab, typing this entry. i'm helping nura with her stuff while waiting for her. gosh. she can be slow and blur at times. haha. sorry to nura if you're reading this. but its true though. LOL! XD
honestly, i still havent done with my revision for mid-year. havent really start yet. gosh. im really slacking that much. i miss my old self where i really take my studies real serious. btw, for the latest maths test, i failed badly and i only got 1 digit number. haha. i'm not that shocked to get that cause i know i would get that kind of mark for that particular test. (:
i got to go now. toodles.
5:00 PM
i'm going out later. yeah! i'm happy. not meeting him though. ): but i'm meeting my primary school pals instead, nabilah, jordan and alwyn. been a long time since i hang out with them. gosh. i cant wait for it. i will be meeting nabilah at our void deck at 12.45 then make our way to aljunied mrt to meet the guys then off to ps for some window-shopping. WEEEEE!!! honestly, i'm not that happy, its just that i try my best to get into the mood of so long we've been apart cause firstly, is not that i'll meeting my sweetie. and secondly, my phone spoilt.
actually i'm waiting for my sweetie to be online so that i could help him with his band's blog but i guess he's still sleeping. i cant blame him though cause he went home late yesterday after he went out with his friends to a gig. so tell me, how am i supposed to help him then?
i havent done any revision nor homework so far for this weekend. what to do? i'm slacking so much.
i miss my sweetie. gonna meet him next sunday. i cant wait for it.
boredom kills me.
11:00 AM
fucked up lah. my phone spoilt out of the sudden. i dont know what happen. i just put it on my brother's bed then... fucked up lah. i dont know what to tell my mother. shit.
i need someone to cheer me up. i need my sweetie to hear whatever i got to say about this incident.
i got no mood to blog now.
7:30 PM
peek a boo to my lovely readers (:
i just finish bathing after a long day out just now. after school has ended, me, nura and fiza went bugis library to write out our notes. well, its more like i'm the only one doing that. and they only doing their file-ing up. haha. btw i've just started to have a habit of pointing to people and say them evil or cruel when i say bad things about them. haha. hopefully fiza loves my accompany as we used not to be that close. (:
i met up with sweetie at around 3.15pm at esplanade for the last time before mid-year starts cause i wont be meeting him until my birthday. thats the hint for people to guess when. sorry to sweetie that i'm late AGAIN. and all thanks to nura. haha. then i saw badrun when i'm on the way home when i was walking with him, talking about some stuffs. i was like so embarrased when i see badrun but i manage to have a short conversation with badrun before proceeding home. sorry that you didnt get enough time to go jamming with your friends kay sweetie. pretty sorry. ):
i didnt have the chance to blog yesterday so i didnt get to wish someone on his special day.
happy 15 birthday to haiqal(:
think more positive about life.
hope you find a gf soon. XD
and hope you will excel your exam.
thats all for today. good night.
8:00 PM
harlow to my dearest readers(:
i love this new skin of mine. its somehow looks like very vintage, isnt it? well, my another 2 hours of hard work doing this skin. well, it may seems easy to do but you all guess it wrongly. and i also love the pic. it is such beutiful one. wow.
i havent really choosen any song for my blog cause i dont what song shall i put. i need something lovely and acoustic. i just love hearing love sad acoustic songs lately that really touches me deeply inside cause it reminds me of someone special.
i gotta go. boredom.
3:30 PM
ever since yesterday night scenario that had happened in my house, i really despise my dad to the max. i cry myself to sleep somehow. just because i lied to him on what time that i would be back home, hes not happy with me. fucked up lah. whose child on earth havent lie to their parents before, you tell me? he didnt even give me the chance to speak out then called me and talked to me rudely, like threatening me somehow. who can take it? my twin bro, he doesnt say anything about it. just because i'm a girl and he's a guy. BULLSHIT OKAY! my bro even took up smoking, he goes out with his gf every weekend, he got the bad attitude in school with teachers and he failed 5 subjects for common test. does he know all about it? fucked up lah. i got limit for my toleration. shit. talking about this, im crying again. fucked up lah.
i really cannot tolerate my dad. i dont want to cry over some unreasonable men who doesnt know how to appreciate women.
anyway, i went home around 11.30 yesterday night. went out with my darnly sweetie. and yeah! he really make my day. met up with him at around 5pm. sorry that i'm late dear. then we walked around marina there till 6.30. bought some food from macd and mrs fields. hope you find it nice kay. then make our way to esplanade rooftop and he took some pictures when we're there and we just chilling out till 7 plus and went to the nearest park at the esplanade. omg. the atmosphere there was so great. so we decided to chill there till around 10.45 then went straight home.
my love for him is real. dont judge me for my mistakes in my past relationships. those were the days where i didnt treasure those who loves me and those i really loves. i want to make this relationship lasts longer than any relationships that i ever had. i want to proof to others and myself that i really have change. i just cant bear to let go of my true love again. cause by then, i have to suffered the same thing twice.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JORDAN (:
find a gf soon okay. XD
6:30 PM
it have been a week since i've updated. yeah. blogging is no longer my main priority when i'm online. cause seeing the taggie with no one tag, i just didnt have the mood to do something with this blog. i maybe or perhaps be hiatus for months. lets just see how the situtaion might be later on.
anyway, been busy meeting him after school this week. our first quarrel was on monday and was like oh so funny to think back about it now. i've been showing him some parts of my real true colours esp yesterday. and i'm meeting him again later. its raining now so which means we get to play in the rain together. how cool is that.
i've learnt something new this week that i can figure it out when a person or family bought the car by seeing their plate numbers and letters. and everytime, i go to places where there's alot of cars like a carpark. i would just figure it just like. btw i can only figure it out for cars and not other vehicles. special thanks to jessica though for telling me about this
the geography competition that i took last saturday was suck. i didnt know most of the question to the ratio of 5:1. haha. it came out alot from human geog which i didnt even learn nor know. LOL! and btw i was choosen to go to thailand with our school for geog this june holidays. and i'm like so happy cause kaya is going with me. YEAH! but sadly, my mum think otherwise about it.
i got to shower now. ciaoz
2:00 PM
today, speech's day was great. but as usual, right now, i'm like so tired and my leg is aching. somehow fed up with my parents and my older bro right now while i'm typing this entry cause they are like showing me their temper ever since i got home. "aarrrggg!!!" cant stand the sight of them. -_-
anyway, tomorrow is another busy day. i wont be home from morning till night. so i'll confirm, i will be dying when i reach home.
cant wait to sing and dance along with the tune and beat of the talent quest's songs at backstage with the PA crews. woohoo! (:
i'm tired.
off to wonderland.
12:00 AM
i've been totally busy this week due to the arts night rehearsal. i cant wait for it to end so that i would and could concentrate more on my mid-year exam. "as if." i keep having moodswings now and then so i'm sorry to those who i have shown you my temper out. its just my bad week. and i'm totally exhausted from all those rehearsal.
anyway, i skipped alot lessons today due to some parts of arts night rehersal which is the talent quest. honestly, i only went for the last three period of the day which is social studies and chemistry. most people just envy me just because i got an excuse to skip classes due to ava duty but i did hear themselves tell me that AVA IS SO LAME AND STUPID. but i always just give them a couldnt be bothered kind of face.
tomorrow would be the the first night of the arts night which is the speech day. hopefully it turn out well cause we didnt even rehearsal much on that. saturday, going to meet my sweetie after the concert. i'm totally looking forward to it.
i gotta go now.
will update more tommorrow perhaps(:
6:15 PM
i'm hungry right now. my mum went malacca without cooking anything. so how am i supposed to eat for lunch and dinner? wow. she's so cruel to let her family go starving. well, its obvious that i skipped lunch. thinking of asking my sweetie to come here and accompany me to eat my dinner. but unfortunately, he lives SO far. so i'm totally wanna forget those plan.
I WANNA HAVE MORE OUTSIDE FRIENDS!!!! i'm desperate for them. i mean i want more gf in my life. but it would be the best if i got more malay gf friends outside which i think they are totally cool and that i could hang out with them till night which i doesnt have any right now. "aku tak racist lah. aku communicate lagi well dengan budak melayu je." introduce me any if you readers have one.
i gotta go. bored.
4:50 PM
i just came back home from the battlefield trip and library with nura only and again. i'm so tired right now though. my leg is aching. somehow i found today's trip for battlefield was only alright, not to what i expected it to be and i feel as if there's something missing out of it. it wasnt that fun like last year where we went fort serapong. i guess the place is so like er. totally deserted, so jungle-ly and there is alot of monkeys all over us. haha. btw li ching was attacked while she was eating her bread by one of the NAUGHTIER monkeys. XD
went lunch at kfc with nura and sume.
then i went jurong library with nura. haha. i know its like so far. and it took us nearly 40 mins from our school to reach there. lend a book and even lend a comic book for her brother also. i keep on speaking english to nura cause there's alot of malay guys in there which i totally dont like it when they keep on staring at us so suspiciously and looking flirtatious at us. eek. disgusting. so i rather pretend that i'm not a malay but ironicly i ended up speaking malay instead.
shockly, i saw kimmy on my way back home. then when i saw him, i went like "eh?" to myself but we're just continued walking to our destination after we took a glimpse at each other. he was on the way to the mrt station btw. i was stunned. really stunned myself up. its not that he suddenly turned into a handsome prince or anything like that. haha. XD its just that i didnt expect to see him at all. it comes so sudden. my mind turn blanked till i reached home and calm myself up. i still cant believe it. maybe i'm just imagining things. but i saw him with very my own eyes. i thought it was some kind of april's fool jokes. its not funny alright peeps. okay. i'm still in daze right now.
maybe i will be going out with my mum later. i want to buy some new clothes(:
i'm outta here.
6:15 PM