i'm bored so might as well update here.
damn it. later going out again to bugis to buy my school shoe. thought of buying kappa instead of converse. so what kappa is common. somehow i think the quality is much better that converse.
tommorow, going malaysia. coming back home should be late at night. oh gosh. gonna bring my discman along incase i get bored in the bus. buying my brown bag there maybe. but hopefully, i get to buy some vintage shirt and pants if we went some place that sells that kind of stuff.
i think juline is coming back today as i read her younger sister blog. oh gosh. i think she's enjoying her holiday at shanghai. well, for me, i'm just rotting at home. hoping the days would pass by so fast till school reopens. and i still havent complete my eng hwk.
well, i gotta go. i'm just gt nothing to talk about. i'm done with the writting.
1:00 PM
sorry. been long since i've updated since azura wants me to update so much and plus i even change my skin. so thats like double updating right. *laughing*. fine. i'm crapping right now.
well, i went shopping for school stuffs thats why i dont update as much as i used to. bought my bag, pencil case and stationary this week. and i would only use the computer in the morning till afternoon for the past few weeks. and from then, its sharin turn to use it.
he will used it till he wanna sleep. which he will sleep like 3 in the morning. honestly, he use the comp longer than me. he would IM [instant message] his so called "girlfriend" at myspace and chat with her all day long. its unfair i know. but i cant separate both of them apart when the IM starts. LOL! i meant its just one of his close friend who is a girl. and thats the irony. never, never in my whole life that i knew him, he has a girl as a friend and he would never talk to any girl for long except for me of course which would turn out to be our little argument of hatred. and whats more, he chat with her almost everyday. omg. and he LOVES to talk about her to me. so i kind of tease him saying he will like her or the other way aorund or just saying they in love with each other. plus they even compliment each other like saying you hot and i will melt. adorable. cute. my teddy bear. i will pounce you like 60 times and dont tell the others. EEEUUKK! GROSS!
going malaysia this saturday with my mum. just shopping there. omg. school days are catching up. five more days to school reopen. still havent complete my eng hwk. i'm just so lazy to do them.
thats all for now. toodles.
11:30 AM
anyway, i'm addicted to "Bukan Milikmu Lagi" [Not Yours Anymore] by agnes monica. it have been awhile since i heard any songs from her. saw the video at one indonesian channel when i woke up just now. that song just attracted me. shall put the live video here. so peeps. ciaoz.
10:45 AM
wello peeps. actually wanted to go down and buy some food to eat. its not that my mum didnt cook but i just wanna buy some junk foods to eat since i'm freaking bored at home. have a craving to buy chocolate pancake. *stomach grumbling* i think due to jamie oliver cooking show just now, which he bake some pancake with sweet corn, maple syrup and butter. woohooo!! *saliva dripping* maybe buying bubble tea and some ice cream. yummy. but i'm under tight budget. omg. i think i'm gonna buy oreo bubble tea and choc pancake.
anyway, but whats been stopping me to go down is that today is christmas so usually most of the shop gonna be close. so how? well, hoping the bakery shop is not close. and the bubble tea shop too.
well, i just gonna go down and check out the shops. so see you all next time. toodles.
6:05 PM
took some pictures when i went bowling with them. sorry didnt put this earlier due to some hp connections and was busy shopping yesterday.
this is what you get when the guys are late and the girls are bored ;
this is what you get when you see the guys bowl ;
this is what you get when the girls are left alone ;
i have to end here. sharin wanna use the comp now. so ciaoz peeps.
3:00 PM
went bowling with moonz, shuk, ak and xh. they rawks man. the guys came late. was supposed to meet them at 12 pm but instead they came at 1 pm. xh and i waited for them for about half hour as somehow we are late too. we played two set of game of bowling. first set, moonz won. gosh. he's lucky cause i'm the one who changed his name into "nabillah" name and he won. must thank me munir cause for changing it or else you wont even make a strike. but then the second game, ak won and moonz was second. gosh. both of them are quite pro. i didnt manage any strike. just a spare. and thats all. only one spare through-out two games. gosh. i suck at it. i was fourth for both of the game. i'm consistent you see. how great am i.
tommorrow, going out with nura. buying an eyeliner for me and sharin. actually, he's the one who wanted it. not me. dont be mistaken. but he's under tight budget so he asked me to buy so that he can also use mine. damn. i'm under tight budget myself you see. anyway, buying myself a pencil case. actually wanted a billabong pencil case. but i'm under TIGHT BUDGET! TIGHT BUDGET!
friday, going out again. gosh. i'm tired. watching kimmy play his soccer match. and btw he's the one who asked me and i didnt say i wanna go. told him maybe i'm going. omg. i'm tired. can i dont go? i need some break please. i'm breaking down. i'm soon gonna declare a brankrupt. NO.............
6:30 PM
Monday [19 Dec]
went school with mahzuz to buy sch uni and skirt = self-entertainment [i laugh at my own jokes]
met kimmy after that = feeling akward.
walked with him = feeling wierd.
talked to him at the queenstown stadium = he's just so sweet.
he promised me that he willing to wait for me for another year = i'm insecure
watched him played soccer match = boring
5 min break of the match = he's more sweet when he talked to me during the break.
overall he treated me = still great as ever.
then i went home when the second half of the match is starting.
i got two free tickets to king kong = i have to bring someone and i texted xiu hong and luckily she can make it as the show was at night(:
so met xiu hong at bugis and i was late = sorry but i miss her alot
saw kerlyn along the way = she didnt notice us
wonder around and saw kerlyn again = xiu hong make some eye contact with her but she didnt say hi at all
7.45 pm went up to parco and buy pop corn = i'm excited for the show
went into the cinema = it was dark and it was hard to find our sit even though the movie hasnt started yet but luckily my phone has photo light(:
find our sit and waited awhile for the show = it might be boring i thought.
the show started = hopefully it would be great
watched king kong = fun, thrilling, shocking, suspense and enjoyable to watch = great
kong = cute, pitiful and nice
*tongues out* to azura :p
9:50 AM
i miss you
do you know that, do you even care about it
i miss your smiles that you gave me
that could make me smile for hours even if my day went wrong
i miss having you beside me
that make me secure whenever you're with me
i miss those times when we're together
where we hold hand and laugh at each other
expressing all these to you is hard for me. its as though there's a barrier that preventing me to do so. a barrier that ensure me not to have another heartbreak, another dissapointment and a worthless tears all day long because of you.
its been awhile since you went away but its seems like i cant give you up. i know deep in my heart, i no longer have any feelings towards you. i may be denying or hiding the truth from myself but no matter what, i'm not gonna give this feeling another try. the dissapoinment i faced because of you, was so much for me to bear. its too much for me to hold in within. i couldnt hang on to you any longer so i dont have any choices but to let you go just like that even if you're the one for me.
ps: you know who you are.
9:15 PM
just came back from school. bought my school books. it costs me nearly $250. omg. i thought it would only costs me about $200 as i counted it last time and i would get the left-overs for myself and i could go for another shooping spree but think again . boo hoo. i'm not getting any. just a few cents that could only land me with some sweets that are bad for my teeth.
thanks to iqbar as he accompany me to school and carry the books for me until i took a cab and went home myself with heavy bools. guess this gonna be my life onwards.
family = they are busy for me
boyfriend = none
ex boyfriends = dont intend to disturb them
girlfriends = they rawks
close friends = 8
friends = all over
enemies = i got myself to blame for it
went out yesterday the whole day till 10 plus. went out with my sister for lunch and ate at swensen. pss. first time eating there, gosh. its not that expensive as i expected too. should eat there more often. then went around orchard with sumedhaa and she bought elmo teddy bear for anushka. but still i would prefer the $39.90 elmo okay sumedhaa. its much more real to the elmo in tv. aniway, after that, meet with my sister again at bugis then went to city hall cause her husband wanted some dvds' at penisula. spent at that music store like one hour. and all the dvds' are like old singers and bands. when they tried out some of his dvds', i went like, "uh?". what kind of songs is that. its so like boring! i saw jesse mccartney cd and dvd of his tour. costs about $27. wanted to buy but re-think about it. nah. wasted my money on him when i could hear all his songs at my comp.
then went carrefour to browse cupboard to put my niece's barbie dolls toys and their kitchen houses and stuff. to think about it, she's quite a pamper girl. i mean everything she wants, she gets. example 1: she wanted to but this kitchen house and get free barbie doll yesterday at carrefour and her parents said that they gonna buy her that thing either today or tommorrow after she gave them her tantrums and crying. example 2: she wanna join ballet as barbie that show on tv always dances on their toes and dance with a "perfect" spin and magically, she got it. her classes are every saturday afternoon. how pamper she could be. omg.
i wanna eat my lunch now. so goodbye. XD
1:45 PM
gonna make this a quick one since sharin wanna use the comp. broke up with kimmy yesterday night. yup. sumedhaa, i broke off with KIMMY! i'm the one suggested it since we're like treated each other like friends. well, partly my fault. i started all this. giving him a cold shoulder first. cant totally blame him. not really sad honestly. somehow, regretting it now. promised myself not to find any guy until i really like a guy like i used to like someone. yar. its you. dont be shocked. its true. hmm. well, been thinking that i'm not really ready for commitment yet. i'm only fourteen for god sake. haha. sharina sucks at relationship!
ADIT RAWKS MY SOCK!S
WOOOOOOWEEEEEEET!!!!!
thats all for now. ciaoz.
11:00 PM
its been two days since i've updated this blog. well, i got nothing to say so might as well as dont update here and write such a boring post, btw how could sharina dont have nothing to talk about? *giggles*
anyway, bought an indonesian cd again, EIFFEL... I"M IN LOVE. omg. I"M IN LOVE WITH IT! the story is so sad plus romantic and everything. i keep crying man. and its nc16 btw. i didnt saw it until i reached home and just seeing the cover of the movie. just because there's a kissing scene, they make it nc16. nonsense. omg. the storyline of this story is that the guy [adit], 19 years old loves this girl [tita], 15 years old, and been away from jakarta for quite long time, and he came back there from paris with his dad to meet his "gonna be wife" which is tita as their parents had arranged it. but then tita dont love adit as she find that he such a arrogant person and she has a bf [ergi] in school which two-timer her with adit's ex-gf [intan]. then later adit told tita to break off with ergi which they have been together for 2 years. omg. its complicated to tell here. must watch it then you know it all. but its sad that the chinese and indians wont reall understand the story cause its in indonesian laguange. but to the malays, who dont exactly underastand that laguange, theres a sub-tittle for you in malay. WOOHOO! how good is that. the more i watch it, the more i starting to love the adit. omg. he's so sweet. he's so cute. he's my ideal bf. omg. *fainted*
anyway, going out with xiu hong tommorrow. its been long since i went out with her. pleaded my mum to buy me a mp3 with my pitiful face. hehe. asking her to buy it before school reopen. hope she's gonna buy it for me. anyway, i got one free movie ticket to king kong? who wanna watch it with me on next monday on the evening? anyone? tag me to tell me.
i gotta go. wanna watch eiffel.. i'm in love again. hehe. wanna watch more of adit's.(: toodles.
9:40 AM
The Black Dahlia
I loved you, you made me, hate me.
You gave me, hate, see?.
It saved me and these tears are deadly.
You feel that?
I rip back, everytime you tried to steal that.
You feel bad? you feel sad?
Im sorry, hell no fuck that!
It was my heart, it was my life,
it was my start, it was your knife.
This strife it dies, this life and these lies.
And these lungs have sung this song for too long,
and its true I hurt too, remember I loved you!
Chorus:
I've , Lost it all, fell today,It's all the same
I'm sorry oh
I'm sorry no
I've , been abused, I feel so used, because of you
I'm sorry oh
I'm sorry no
I wish I could have quit you.
I wish I never missed you,
And told you that I loved you,
every time I fucked you.
The future that we both drew,
and all the shit we've been through.
Obessed with the thought of you,
the pain just grew and grew!
How could you do this to me?
Look at what I made for you,
it never was enough
and the world is what I gave to you.
I used to be love struck,
now I'm just fucked up.
Pull up my sleeves and see the pattern of my cuts!
Chorus:
Ive lost it all, fell today,It's all the same
I'm sorry oh
I'm sorry no
I've , been abused, I feel so used, because of you
I'm sorry oh
I'm sorry no
Seems like all we had is over now you left to rest
And your tears are dried up now
you just lay without a sound.
Seems like all we had is over now, you left to rest
And my fears are over now
i can leave with my head down
Chorus:
I've lost it all, fell today,It's all the same
I'm sorry oh
I'm sorry no
I've been abused, I feel so used, because of you
I'm sorry oh
I'm sorry no
sorry
I used to be love struck
now I'm just fucked up
sorry
pull up my sleeves and see the pattern of my cuts.
sorry
sorry
I used to be love struck
now I'm just fucked up
sorry
pull up my sleeves and see the pattern of my cuts.
sorry
i'm sorry now.
8:20 AM
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know
Chorus:
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life,
what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes
Chorus:
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live
Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always
Chorus:
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Chorus
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself
when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live, I live, I live
5:30 PM
I'M TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH JESSE!!
5:15 PM
i'm back. its been long since i've updated here. sorry. i bet that you peeps miss me right. *giggles* shall do some writing on what happen to me these days.
Friday [2 Dec]
at around 6 am, my mum woke me up to get ready to go to tanjong pinanag or more commonly known as riau [thats what i saw on suria yeasterday night when they talked about that country]. went to the singapore ferry terminal by cab. and then kimmy texted me and apologised to me for venting his anger at me due to some mis-understanding towards him and raf and moonz. oh gosh. i was in between between him and my darnly CLOSE friends. aniway, reach the riau by ferry which took like one hour plus and took a van to Pelangi hotel or Rainbow hotel as my far cousin was working there. saw some girls of my age or can i say younger than me riding a motor-bike. oh gosh. i was jealous. and i have a bumpy ride cause the road there isnt like singapore. ): then i slept in a like chalet house while i was there. wow. the room was nice and the food there was FAB!! i cant describe it. it was so excellent. WOOHOO.
Saturday [3 Dec]
went to my another far cousin marriage but only for awhile. then we wanted to go to my aunt place which located quite near there so some of us took a ride in a motorbike while others just walk. i walked a few metres and i took a ride in a motor bike cause my leg was aching. omg. the feeling of riding it was un-describe-able. i was wearing my baju kurung with my high-heel shoe and riding that and my nephew sat infront while me behind. oh gosh. when we need to go uphill, i held the my far aunt's shoulder quite tight that i somehow pity her if it gonna hurts later. *giggles* i was so scared that i might fall off you see and i do not ride a bike even when i'm in singapore. to those who are usually your father ride you to school by motor-bike then its nothing to you when it comes to all this. then went to their dry market. well, its not as clean as singapore. then some went back to the hotel while some went back to the marriage thingy. on the ride to the hotel, somehow i misses singapore by that time. sigh. then changed my clothes and headed to the swimming pool. haha. i was only swimming at the baby pool cause i need to accompany my sister-in-law mum as she was there and too short to got to the 4 feet swimming pool. XD
Sunday [4 Dec]
preparing to go home. pack all my stuff in my bag. reach singapore like 6 plus. and the first person i replied to was sumedhaa msg as i received it when i was in riau then texted kimmy. well, nothing special. just unpacked some of the stuff and went to sleep at around 11 pm after kimmy fell asleep.
Monday [5 Dec]
went to school to know my class result. oh gosh. as i expected, i went 3e3. i was not that sad like i used to be. somehow its my fault for not working double-ly hard this year. well, not use crying over spilled milk and four out of five malay express girls went there. WOOHOO!! and my bro also gonna be in that class. omg. i cant even stand at the sight of him. he's so freaking irritating. and barry would be there also. omg. i bet you that my class gonna be that noisy. so noisy that i cant concentrate on studying.
well, i'm ending here. cioaz.
12:00 PM
its been awhile since i updated this blog. well, this is earlier than my monday post. i dont really like to post it in the morning esp around this time but i got no choice cause i will be out today around afternoon till evening, going to 2e1 chalet again. went there yesterday with munir and all. i was having a GREAT time there and nabillah went there too. too bad, i cant stay for the bbq tomorrow cause by then i wont be in singapore. well, talking about it, this is the last entry that i posting here since i going overseas for 3 days and i would only update it when i going back to singapore.
Monday [28 Nov]
went to watch GOF with kimmy at bugis. it was a bad day for me. firstly, i knocked onto someone and he laughed at me. geek. not funny. saw jean when i'm with him to buy the popcorn. gosh. i dont want mention in detail what happened next and so on. its just not a great day for me. btw, when i watched the GOF with him, i dont really understand what happened in the movie. and i dont really watch it with full concentration. and i find it quite boring too for the first time in my WHOLE life when i'm a fan of harry potter movies myself. its just wierd.
after i went out with him, my twin bro told me that my older brother is asking us to watch a movie which i knew its gonna be harry potter. so meet with my twin bro at the mrt station with my nephew. went tampines to watch. this second time around, i definitely understand it way better than before. and its not that boring like before.
so you all guess that i watched it like twice a day. LOL!
Tuesday [29 Nov]
stayed home all day. nothing happened. a boring day.
Wednesday [30 Nov]
wake up in the morning and get ready for chalet. then around 1 plus, went out from the house and meet the 2e1 at the boon keng mrt. saw kamsani when waiting for the others to come. reach there like 3.45 pm. then the malays like chilling it the room while the chinese is like hanging out at the so called "living room". went home like 11 pm yesterday. cause we sent nabillah home first before mine. luckily my mum or dad doesnt scold me or nag at me. LUCKY! phew. but so sad for munir and ashraf that the need to walk from pasir ris interchange to the aloha. how far the need to walk man. gosh. pitied them.
well, thats all for now. see you all in 4 days time. ciaoz.
12:30 PM