2) when the girl hang-out with her boy pals including the guy, she would talk alot with her boy pals and would only talk to the guy when it is necessary.
3) the girl would talk to the guy only when she wants to disturb or tease him.
4) the girl would interrupt the guy's conversation with his friends everytime the guy finish his sentence.
5) everytime the girl walk past by the guy's class, she would never look in, fearing that the guy would notice what she is doing.
6) when the guy ask the girl for something like tissue, she would try her best to get it for him even if she didnt have it and would buy especially for him, so that the guy would notice that she really care about him.
7) the girl would not always praise the guy like she used to do after she found out that she would never be the one he likes.
8) the girl would praise the guy, saying that the guy is cute more often than saying he is handsome. HOW TRUE!
9) when the girl come to school, the first thing she would do is she would put her bag in her classroom and then stand outside the corridor, hoping the guy would be in the corridor, so that she would talk to him.
10) the girl would never try to text the guy even if she has his number, hoping that one day the guy would text to her.
peeps, do give comments about this facts in my taggie. tell me which number is more accurate and which one is so vague. i mean this list could go on forever but i based this on my own judgements with my friends and my own experiences when we fall for a guy. *giggles*
nothing more to say. ciaoz peeps. good night.
11:10 AM
BOO! i'm here again. actually, i dont have any great story to tell you peeps toaday but i shall remember what happened to me these past 2 days.
yesterday, i had duty for the rehearsal of the "FIESTA DEEPARAYA" consert. thanks to my darling of course. honestly, i'm not on duty for the consert at all. you may say that i'm kinda extra in there. haha. but i told mr dave that i wanted to help and he actually give the duty to me on the actual day. WOOHOO! and i get to help my darling. btw, my darling is a girl. haha. we're so close nowadays. right my darling?. haha. mr dave scared that this thing would affect my fasting thats why he didnt put me on duty. but did it? NO! i stood to all those hunger and thirst i felt yesterday. i used to it already by now as i would always see my non-malay eat infront of me. its okay to me.
i slept as early as 8.30 pm yesterday night. haha. see how tired am i? XD
just now, i was kinda frustrated with zuz. sorry to him though. i was stress okay. due to the game "stress" we played during the movie screening at the hall just now. haha. kidding. i was stress due that we still didnt realy plan out our plans to eat out for tommorow break-fast and also the presents that you wanted to give to s.a and going home with nis and kimmy. sorry to those who i show out my attitude just now esp. zuz, kimmy and nis. sorry you all. its my fault i know. remember my period is coming. thats why i'm having my moodswing now and then. =)
next week is hari raya. so that means that i would end my fasting too. =)
tommorrow is the last day of school for me. how great it is. i would enjoy those days when i have my beauty sleep day and night without any worries to care. and i'm taking my report book also. hopefully, this time around, i wont be dissapointed with my overall like my mid-year marks.
thats all for today. cioz peeps. good night. may update more tommorrow.
11:00 AM
i was kinda frustrated with kimmy when i was on my way home ALONE to the bus-stop. AAARRRRG!!! i was supposed to go home with kimmy at 3.30pm. so i waited for him for 15 mins in the canteen as we promised to meet there yesterday but he didnt came. i keep on going to the 2e1 classroom and to the canteen to see whether he's there yet cause i dont want to feel like a fool to wait for him in the canteen all alone. i was getting so fed-up that i decided to go home alone after all. i hate waiting for people okay in the first place. i just stormed off from 2e1 when i went there for the third time. maybe he's forgotten about it after hanging out with his pals just now. i will let him wait for me in the canteen the whole afternoon. like i will care. HMPH!
but i'm better now. i do some reflection on my anger towards him inside the bus just now. or should i say that i do some thinking about it. i know i just waited for him for only 15 mins and i'm acting like this. these past weeks, he is the one who usually waits for me and this is my first time waiting for him and i'm like show my attitude. actually, i afraid that we might not go home with each other anymore as this week is the last week of school for me and this week i kinda busy with alot of stuff. just take at look at my schedule. sigh. and we're like not spending enough time with each other anymore nowadays. hopefully, you're not angry due to my attitude just now. sorry if im so self-centered. i know i should relax more. to shuk and moonz, sorry if i'm kinda rude to both of you just now and i'm not angry because someone bully me or anything worst. maybe tell you guys the real story tomorrow. btw to sume and julie, kimmy is ahem-ahem. i just change the nick after much consideration. to me, this is a better nickname for him. it sounds better too.
i'm having my moodswing today. omg. the day is coming nearer. so peeps beware, if i'm like so emotional to you all cause my period is coming.
nothing to blog anymore. thats all folks. bye-bye.
8:30 AM
Shattered Dreams
Broken,
With a shattered heart
Leaving,
Leaving us apart
Bleeding, Silently
Drowning, Suffocating
Without you beside me.
well, i wrote them again here. shall repeat what i say in my previous entry. COMMENTS ON MY BOARD. thank you peeps.
frustrated with myself. deleted all the post in my board. stupid itchy fingers. always wanna try something different and it turned out to be something bad. darn it. so peeps, tag more. flood them with all craps. i dont care.
thanks to peeps that commented on my "poem". shall shared more with you all someday. it may sounds like more about love and all but thats the only thing that give me aspiration to write. but been long since i got the time to do them. shall do it during the holidays perhaps. and some of these poem are actually lyrics of my song that i compose it all myself. cool isnt it. yup. i got an aspiration. about a problem that one of my friends is facing right now. shall find one day to think and write it all down.
btw to haiqal, you're changing. i dont care whether you're reading this or not but i need to say them all out here. i've been noticing that you're not as close to us like the past anymore. okay. maybe its because of that break up that happened to us quite recently but that doesnt mean you need to avoid me or our friends. i still talk to you when i see you. i still the same. the same sharina that people used to know. please. just put that happened between us behind for the sake of our and their friendship. i still hang out with them even if i see you're there. its nothing wrong. its not such a big deal anymore to me. i'm still one of your friends. or should i say. we're still your friends. shuk is worry that people are influencing you to be bad. we're not asking much and all but try to be reasonable and think what we are feeling right now. fine. i dont care whether you still listens to me. i just say out what i think its my right as a friend of yours to tell you all this.
well, thats about it for now. fly away with me to the clear blue sky. release those pains. nightmares. anger. worries. hidden secrets. stress. just forget everything and fly with me. wee.
3:00 AM
Memories of this little girl
Where pains lies deeply in her
Her soul and life had carried away
By the wind of undirection way
Her body just lied on the ground
Unconciously suffocating with blood around
Say your ritual
Say out the prayers
She wont be what she were
Forgive me, she may say
To end her life this way
The secret pains that she always hides
To forget all her nightmares by suicide.
to peeps, no copyright. its totally written by me. and no one else. but you may give comment on my board on this so called poem. tougues out to azuu. i do write such stuff okay. =p
7:50 AM
everytime you run i would think
that you're the one i want
never did once you tell me
that day and night, you're suffering
dont let the feelings to control the heart
dont let everything just pass by.
even though i'm standing right here
i'm still want the love
even though i'm alone, i would still come back
hoping we would be together.
dont come back with the feeling of missing
everytime you are far away
its hard for me to forget it
because of love
first time i set my eyes on you
its making me fly in the sky
dont come back with the feeling of missing
because of love
you're the one who breaks the promise
not me
you're the one who forgets it
not me
its only me that hopes
that we would be happy together for a long time
but thats all is just a memories
its only left with the feeling
in my wishes, i always wanted to be beside you
oh please, come back.
everytime i reminiscence about you
day and night, i pray for your happiness
only one thing i would ask for
its your sincere heart
hoping you would reciprocate my long for you.
11:30 AM
okay. i shouldnt feel that sad anymore about my studies. so what i get this kind of grades. i can try my best next year and get to top ten in that kind of class. thanks to yh for really convinces me that its not that bad after all. but the disadvantage is that its hard for me to study and i got to work double hard to really score a good results in that class as the students would slack even more and wont be listening to the teachers.
by the way this is my overall marks.
ENGLISH - C5
MATHS - C5
SCIENCE - C6
MALAY - B4
HISTORY - B3
LIT - F9
HOME ECON - B4
ART - C5
tell me how sucks it is. sigh. but this grades are making me realised not to study last minute no more and not to slack so much during the year. =)
i will end here for tonight. shall blog more tommorrow i think. good night.
10:45 AM
i'm not in the mood for blogging ever since i get to know about my result recently. its was that BAD! SO BADLY DONE, i can say. i dissapoint myself with those grades. i know i gonna be in 3e3 next year. i can sense it now.
see those words that are bold. I REALLY HATE MYSELF FOR ALL THIS!
i know i cant regret now. but i put my best to it and it turned out to be such a dissapointment to me. its hurts me, everytime my friends talk about their studies, results and what subjects they are taking next year. sigh.
i gotta go now. there's no purpose for me to blog anymore. ciaoz peeps.
10:30 AM
well peeps, i just reach home. went to play soccer with shuk, moonz, D., G. and zuz. well, its more as killing mosquitoes game rather than playing soccer for me. haha. i'm like the goalkeeper cause i'm like restless and all today and i hate soccer. remember? haha. btw, the mosquitoes kept on sucking blood on my legs. how could i play with this kind of condition? can someone tell me. honestly, the school should spray more at the area near the basketball court and the street soccer court instead of the area where the pond is.
anyway, get my malay and science paper just now. my malay overall, i get a B4. well, abit dissapointed with my malay grade but never mind. i know i gonna get a B for malay anyway. =)
i was SO DISSAPOINTED with myself with my science marks. how could i only get a C5! i try my best for it. i put my hard work into it. i cried and juline knew it but for only awhile. i put a brave front inside the class just now after i went to the toilet during the last period when ms lim relieved our class as we're supposed to have our english. okay. you peeps may console me by saying that its not the overall and maybe i would pass the total but DO YOU KNOW THAT MY MID-YEAR, I GET ONLY A E8 FOR SCIENCE! how do you expect me to convince myself that i would pass my overall science then. sigh. i cried when i was going up to the AVA room to take my history paper. and unfortunately, during that time, i was hearing Moment Like This by kelly clarkson. and i was hearing this phrase, "i cant believe its happening to me". the more i feel like crying.
until i get my history paper back. i cant believe myself that i get a A2 for it. at least, it somehow cheer me up abit. AT LEAST! ashraf conviced me that SCIENCE is not a double wattage than i thought it would. so does it mean that i cried for nothing. oh god. but i still not satsified with that mark! aarg. never mind. what past is past, cant change it that. thats my motivation. no used of crying over the spilled milk you may say. =)
btw, THIS IS THE FIRST TIME THAT I'VE CRIED FOR MY STUDIES! and why must it be science? omg. XD
bought my blank cd. WOOHOO! can burn because of love song later. lala`
wanna end here. gotta prepared for my break-fast. ciaoz peeps. take care.
9:50 AM
peek-a-boo. i'm back here again. went to bugis to buy my shoe and some accessory. omg. i love my brand new bracelet. its so sweet. its only cost me $19. omg. so cute. about my shoe. well, my sis said that the shoe is nice. overall, she's the one who chose it for me and asked me to wear this shoe or that shoe when we went shopping just now. haha. i just say anything when she asked me whether i want to buy it or not. haha. well, its ALOT of shoes for me to chose and i'm having a headache to choose when i see the shoes surrounded me. haha. honestly, the heel is not that high. shorter than my last year one. =(
started to get addicted to kerna sayang or because of love by VE. a malay song to my peeps. omg. so meaningful. I WANT TO BURN THIS SONG!!!! but too bad, i cant buy a blank cd cause most probably around this time, the book shop at my house area have closed. oh shit! i should have it buy yesterday or this morning. regretted. regretted. well, i have to buy it tommorrow then. sad. cant hear it on my way to school tommorrow. =(
well peeps, i should end here for today. tommorrow, school is starting again. and i need to have a early rest. good night to my peeps. have a sweet dreams tonight. take care everyone.
11:30 AM
hello. didnt update yesterday as i went to bazaar again with my family. haha. bought my baju kurung and bag. haha. both black in colour. cool. buying my baju kurung again later at the end of this month. haha. btw peeps, i'm not rich just bacause i keep on buying stuff okay. tommorrow buying shoe at bugis or orchard. yup. its gonna be a high heel shoe again. haha. you peeps may be shock that i wear one. haha.
aniway, went to fort serapong again and fort siloso. yup. i was fasting there all the way. sigh. thanks to chiok that he drank infront of me with all the stupid sounds he make. aarg! but i mean he's kind of a understanding guy also. haha. he answered for me when jay asked me to change my religion just because a muslim need to fast. what the heck is jay's talking. he's such a nonsense guy man. haha. XD
jay : "sharina, you can just change your religion to be a christian what"
me : "crazy lah. i dont want."
chiok : "she's born to be a muslim right. of course she would follow to be a muslim and as for me, i can be any religion i want"
jay : " she can choose what. and be in any religion she want like you."
chiok : "i'm a free thinker when i'm born. i dont have any journey to follow which religion i should go. i can be in this religion one minute. and in another religion this mintue."
WOOHOO! thanks chiok for that.
btw, i've change my skin again. cause all my friends's blog, i see that they keep changing the skin and i'm jealous. and my solution is to change the skin also. hehe. give your comments about this skin ya. thanks.
aniway, I PASSED MY MATHS! my class only got 2 failures. i thought i FLUNG that paper so bad. thanks to mdm tong and everybody who have helped me in my maths. even if i just get a bottom line marks but at least, i passed it. WOOHOO! hopefully my english, i would get a B. hopefully. i wanted to get a B for that subject for so long. i wanna go e2 next year. thats my aim!
well, i gotta stop here for tonight cause i got nothing to blog anymore. good nite. take care peeps. =)
10:40 AM
watsup peeps. just reach home from geylang east lib. haha. went out with nura only today. nabillah cant go cause she's meeting someone else. went to take neo-print with nura at bugis. luckily didnt saw my sis there. nura didnt fast today cause she didnt feel like too. and she drank bubble tea infront of me. she's cruel. XD
went to take the neo-print that costs us $11. i mean its so expensive and nura only paid $2 cause she only brought that some of money. wah. i end up paying like $9 just for 2 pics where myself, need to save the money to buy a present for someone. oh god. never mind. shouldnt be calculative cause she belanja me and nabillah once when we took neo-print on my birthday this year. aniway, that machine is one of the newest among all the machines in that shop. haha. at least we get to try it. cool. =)
then went lib cause she suddenly feel like reading. so went to the lib nearest to my house as i was fasting. and she sympathise me. haha. read this joke book and one book about why boys are not an alien. haha. its about the way they are thinking about girls. haha. alot of facts thats hits on the nail. i mean its like true. slept in this reading room for about 15 mins. haha. i was tired from reading all those book. but soon, i was awake as the librarian asked nura to do so. saw asyraf osman when i woke up from my sleep. he have been chasing me for 2 years back then when we were still primary 5 & 6. i rejected him twice. haha. he asked me for my number just now. and i gave it to him. hehe. XD
and btw, you peeps can just forget what i wrote in my yesterday's entry. been thinking since just now that i should let go of the past. no use of reminiscing about those times. i better off without him. my life is better now. why should i care with all that when he dont care at all. its up to him whether he wanna talk to me or not. i'm not forcing no more. i feel like i dont wanna wait for him. i'm tired of being in this dilemma. the best for me to do now is that i shall leave from all this and says those days my goodbye. =)
i wanna have my sleep now. wanna have my beauty sleep in case i sleep late today. even though NO SCHOOL for me tommorrow. haha. =P. so ciaoz peeps. have a good day today. =)
before i forgot, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TINGHUI, FARHAN & SEAN! be happy always!
7:50 AM
WOOHOO!!!! exam is finishing for me. tommorrow is the last paper. WOOHOO! i'm happy. but i still havent do my art preparations for tommorrow. i'm lazy. i dont want to do it. i hate art. AAAARGG! i'm slacking again. omg. i dont care. whatever. muahaha. =)
i missing those times when i am with you. i read my friend's friendster testimonial and saw what she wrote to her god-bro and vice versa. sigh. how i wish i could turn back the time. before we went all this. we were so that CLOSE. but now, what happened. its as if we didnt know each other. sigh. i miss you. i mean as a god bro and god sis relationship missing. i dont mind that i wont be that girl you like or be with you each time like last time but at least you could treat me well before we went all that. ok. fine. maybe you need more time. but the more you ignore me, the more i feel awkward you know. its hurts me as a friend and a god-sis to see you treating me that way. and its hurts even more when deep inside my heart, i know i still like you and you treating me this way. sigh. what can i do. =(
you didnt come to school for two days already. everyone esp. your friends kept asking me about you. when myself, i didnt know why you didnt come. do they know its hurts everytime they mention your name at me. when all i can say is "I DONT KNOW, I DONT CARE, I DONT BOTHER!" sigh. it hurts that bad okay. sigh.
well, i gotta here. sharin wanna use. so ciaoz peeps. take care. good night.
11:30 AM
woohoo. just finish changing into my home clothes. just now, went to junction 8 with my primary school peeps, xh and sh. WOOHOO! they rawks my life! =)
10 am, i went out of school. waited for the bus at the 7-11 eleven bus stop to meet sh. reached the aljunied mrt by 10.32 am. ok. i thought i was late but no. sh came at 10.45 am. haha. she was the one who is late. not me. haha. took the train to toa payoh to meet with hx and wl at the lib. sigh. but before we went to the lib, we went to the popular bookstore to buy sh's pen while waiting for xh as she ends her paper at 11.00 am. she came and saw us. then we talked all the way to the lib. saw suzi, diana and nura along the way. they may thought that i was like abit arrogant at them when i'm with my peeps. haha. i can see it by the way how they looked at me. hey. its been long time since i've seen them nor talked to them. sorry to my malay peeps. =(
we sat there for at awhile and we felt bored. the librarian even accused us of eating. whats that all about. i was FASTING ok. how am i supposed to eat when i cant even drink. whatever. so sh and xh decided to go macd to eat cause they are hungry. ok. i'm like there hearing my discman. haha. they drink coke in fornt of me. omg. i was kinda hoping i could taste that too but too bad, i was fasting. sigh. i'm sad. =(
then we were so bored that we decided to go juction 8 and walked walked there. haha. sh bought a pair of socks while me bought a chocholate correction tape at the mini toons. haha. its so cool man. haha. and even cute too. =) we went there to some sort of window shopping more. saw alot of stuffs that i've been planning to buy for a someone. haha. i wont mention who. haha. shall ask him to follow me when i asked him to accompany me to buy "my cousin birthday" present when the present is actually for him. haha. cool. i got this plan in my mind for so long. hopefully it will works. haha. =)
peeps been telling me that you need more time. ok. fine. i shall give it to you. i was thinking more to myself. sorry for all the troubles that you've been through because of me. sigh.
i keep yawning since just now. haha. i dont know why am i tired of actually. haha. i slept 11 plus yesteday night. haha. shall sleep early today or should i do it now. hm. i think i should do it now cause maybe at night, i gonna study my home econ. haha. ok peeps. take care. ciaoz.
7:00 AM
watsup peeps. come and and update here. yup. i am bored as usual. haha. went geylang east library during noon. saw luqman while walking there. i kinda embarrass when i see him. luckily, i'm like hearing my discman and like act dont care whats happening around me or else i would blush so much like cikgu zu. haha. =)
starting to get addicted to pop ye ye [you can hear the song and see the video that i've put on my yesterday entry] ever since i downloaded the song at my comp. omg. its so nice. haha.
aniway, went library to do my revision with a friend of mine. do it for about an hour and i already starting to feel the cold of the air-con. haha. kept lying on the table cause its kinda cold and i feel sleepy. so i keep talking to my friend cause i'm so bored. haha. and the group next to our table was so noisy. cant stand them but eventually, they went out from the libarry. at last, peace was with us. muahaha. around 3 pm, we went out from the library and talked at the nearest playground. talked. talked. we forgotten about the time so we decided to go home when we feel kinda tired already. then i reached home at 5 pm. haha. we talked so long and i didnt know cause time passed by so fast when we chatted. haha. then changed back to my home clothes then as usual, i slept. haha. what. i was tired ok. haha. slept till 6.40 pm. waited for the breaking of fast. soon, i saw myself eating. =)
tommorrow, got MT paper. haha. no need to learn. haha. i'm slacking now. haha. tommorrow, got to wait for my friend cause i'm going home with him around 3 pm. so i will be staying back with my best ever peeps. WOOHOO!
getting bored of writing. ending here. ciaoz peeps. good nite. have a good monday. =)
12:00 PM
just now till 4 plus, i do my maths revision and art. getting ready for my maths paper 2 this tuesday by doing exercises in my maths tbk. i need to score in my paper 2 in order to pass my maths paper. sigh. hopefully i will not lost any more marks there. at least not 10 and above or else i'm the edge on failing already. =(
ok. i'm bored now. i got nothing to do so i put a video. and btw this video above, got my idol in it, FAUZIE LAILY! he's cute with his new hairstyle. i love the hairstyle. haha. he's the one wearing the green tie for those peeps who doesnt know who is who. haha. ciaoz for now. waiting for breaking of fast. about another 1 more hours to go. shall see all my friends blog to kill my boredness. good evening peeps.
9:00 AM
i'm bored so come and write here. actually, i dont want to blog for today but as you can see i'm so bored at home. nothing to do. so better off come here and blog. rather than doing nothing.
to haiqal, if you're laughing at what i wrote. just laugh all you want. i mean when i think again that i wrote that, i got the feeling i'm being stupid. being like a fool. haha. really. the letter is pretty lame right. i wrote that yesterday night when i was bored ok. haha. hey, i was feeling abit low. thats why i got the whole time to wrote all this childish stuff. hope that you didnt let anyone read it or else i gonna die from embarrassment tommorrow. haha.
and btw, the science paper just now was okay to me. abit difficult i think. but i got more confidence that i gonna pass my science than my maths paper 1. haha. some of the things i forgotten like how the bells works. omg. ms lim have given us a test about this once and i was stupid enuff not to remember it in the morning. you know what. it is a 7 marks question and i wrote only the answer only using 3 lines. haha. die. never mind. at least i got the confidence that i gonna pass science, my used to hate subj. rather than maths, my fav subj. haha.
tommorrow, lit paper. sigh. this week, all the papers are all you need to memorize either the notes or the main points or even the steps. sigh. maybe sleeping late today. been long since i have my beauty sleep and i gonna thank exam if i ever gonna get those panda eyes and the yawning sickness in the morning. haha.
aniway, shall stop here. i feel all sleeping now. haha. and i'm alone at home now so i can sleep with peace without anyone disturbing me. haha. take care peeps. good luck for tommorrow's paper. to the malays, selamat berpuasa dan nanti selamat berbuka. hehe. ciaoz.
3:40 AM
i FLUNG my maths paper this time around. die. loss of 12 marks. due to not enough time. and its not plus with the mistake i make. eg. 46 divided by 2 is 13. how good is my calculation is. great. its juat a great day for me. AAARRGG! i'm dead. sigh. hopefully i would score at my maths paper two. hopefully. gonna work hard for the paper two. sigh.
sorry to haiqal. you think i want all this to happen. you think i'm happy with what i'm doing to us. you know how much it hurts with the decision i make. it tears me apart. i try to put a brave front just now. try to be strong infront of you when i see you. do you know that my heart is empty when i decided to let go of you. no more of the love and the care for people around me. i lost hopes on them. its like there's something missing in my life and now, i'm trying to figure it out was is that something when actually deep inside, i'm know whats missing. nothing can cheer me up anymore. i love you alot. really. i'm not lying. i was force to do this. try to understand me. i think we need some time alone. we should think whether this relationship is working out. sigh. i understand if you're not gonna talk to me tommorrow or even be angry with me. i dont blame you. but i hope we would still be friends or even better be god bro and sis like last time if we find that we werent meant for each other. sigh. gonna miss you. sigh.
ending here. not in my mood. good evening.
9:30 AM
to my darling. this lyrics is for you from me. =(
Katakan
Katakanlah dengarkanlah percayalah x2
Katakan kau cinta padaku
Kan ku serah segalanya
Ku pasti kita bahagia
Tiada lagi keraguan
Cintaku takkan persia
Walau ribut getir melanda
Bukan paksaan atau mainan
Usah bimbang lafazkanlah
Ke mana saja ku lari
Wajahmu selalu di hati
Suaramu menghibur kalbu
Ku terlena sejenak merindu
chorus
Katakanlah dengarkanlah percayalah
Ucapkan sayang cinta padaku setulus hati
Murnimu
Katakanlah dengarkanlah percayalah
Sesungguhnya
Ku serahkan jiwa ragaku hanyalah untukmu
Katakanlah dengarkanlah percayalah
Daku dambakan senyum manismu tawa
Mesramu lirikan manja
Katakan kau cinta padaku
Kan ku serah segalanya
Bukan paksaan atau mainan
Usah bimbang lafazkanlah
Ke mana saja ku lari
Wajahmu selalu di hati
Suaramu menghibur kalbu
Ku terlena sejenak merindu
chorus
Katakanlah, katakanlah x4
Ke mana saja ku lari
Wajahmu selalu di hati
Suaramu menghibur kalbu
Ku terlena sejenak merindu
chorus
Katakanlah dengarkanlah percayalah
Ucapkan sayang cinta padaku setulus hati
Murnimu
Katakanlah dengarkanlah percayalah
Sesungguhnya
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9:00 AM
ok. just now, i was having my histrory paper. omg. i feel pressurize. haha. due to time limit. and btw, i finish it like 15 mins before dismissal. haha. before doing the paper, have the feeling that i gonna flung it cause i'm like trying my best to memorize the points in my freaking brain and i just cant remember it as i got this STM [short term memory]. but after i've done the paper, i'm like feeling the other way round. haha. how confident am i. its either i passed with flying colours or i just pass. but whatever. i'm proud of myself thats the important thing now. haha. i know i gonna make it this time. haha. =)
actually wanted to go home early with nura today but instead went home at 5.15 pm with shuk, moonz and zuz. all my "adiks". haha. they keep calling me kak except for zuz. played soccer with them, raf and hl. haha. its rare that i would play it. so those who missed this chance to see me played, too bad then. haha. but i wasnt that intrested with playing soccer actually so you can see me like sitting down, standing up and walking everywhere at the street soccer court while listening to raf discman. i hate soccer. cant be blame. hehe.
raf kept disturbing me just now. kicked the soccer ball and it hits me. then he throw water at my legs, making them wet. never mind. i shall forgive and forget. haha. but i disturbed him back by calling "i" and "u" language. haha. only the malay peeps would know what i mean. for an example, "u tak baik seh, u buat i macam gini". haha. this language usually used by malay couples. its like you're sweet talking to each other. haha. its not funny i know. and for you peeps info, WE'RE NOT A COUPLE OK. haha. =)
and to that someone, i can see that we're not that close anymore. not like we're used to be. and i miss those time. i know that its exam period now and we cant see each other that often so i suggests that we take a break from all this. its not that i have a change of heart but i mean its like getting us nowhere. i've learnt that some things are beyond our control. if we were to be like last time, how good can it be. and how i wish its still is. we used to spend most of our time together. tell each other stories without fail. be there for each other. but ever since that 5 august, we're like drifted apart day by day without realizing it ourselves. maybe. or just maybe we better off being friends. sigh.
it hurts me inside to see you gone from my life when i know you mean so much to me. lets take a break for now. when the time is right, we will know whether we are meant for each other. we shall take a break till exam ended. starting from tommorrow onwards as it is the 2 month. its hard but i cant take it with all this. you dont know how it really feels. wanted to cry out the pain but i getting sick of those tears falling. it aches in the inside. and i know deep in my heart, i still need you. i still like you. i just dont wanna give up with this but i just have the feeling that you dont like me anymore. i dont care if you like other girls but i just dont want to waste your time and my time where you know that those high hopes for us are just empty dreams of mine. there's other girls better than me. take them as a replace of me in your heart. i can never be the best for you i know. being with you is the best moment in my life ever. you make me strong day by day with you beside me. making me change to be what i wanted to be all this while. all because of you, i've turn out this way now. sigh. hope you reading this. sigh.
sad huh my story. should be happy for the sake of shuk and some dudes. haha. tommorrow is maths paper 1. WOOHOO! only an hour paper. waste my time coming to school for about 3 hours. going toa payoh lib with nura tommorrow to do my art after the paper. haha.
ending here. got nothing more to blog. ciaoz peeps. good nite. for the 2e's, tommorrow for maths paper, YOU CAN DO IT! haha. XD
10:30 AM
hello peeps. i've just woke up from my beauty sleep. slept for almost two hour now. i need to sleep to energise my brain ok after all that exam and thinking too much. so that i can study my history better later. i mean much later. haha. =)
aniway, i went home early today. WOOHOO! i saw the indian guy from the "triple noize" group going somewhere. to peeps, he just live the next block from mine. but i never asked for autograph before. i mean i'm embarassed to ask him for that. or is it i couldnt be bother to ask. haha. omg. his hair is so"AFRO". haha. how long could his hair be if it is to reborn i thought. so stupid. haha. he once notice me when i kept on looking at him and he smiled to me. but its way quite long when that happened to me. haha. XD
my pimple is like peeling off already. its like gonna be gone another few more days. WOOHOO to me again. i didnt touch it ok. really. i didnt even squeeze it. cause i know it would worsen my face. i'm happy. i'm gonna get my FLAWLESS face back. YEAH! so vain. whatever.
but today, i'm having my moodswing. so girls you know that i'm having peirod. no wonder i've cried during the second paper when i "wrote" something on a piece of paper after i've completed my summary. left 10 mins to dismiss, i was writting my feelings out that i've kept inside for so long. that thing usually works for me when i'm kinda sad. well, i expressed all my feelings out and my thoughts at that paper ok. no one read it cause i dont want them to. its so way personal to me. and after the eng paper ended, i felt as if i wanted to be alone. just alone. wanted to go home on my own but in the end, i cant. i just wanna shut up for awhile. sigh.
due to that, i cant FAST on wednesday. AAARRRG! fasting will start another two more days and i cant fast. AAAARRG. i'm frustrated and all. i mean most of my malay peeps would be fasting and i'm not. sigh. cant be blame.
well, i gtg. i feel all sleepy again. haha. need to study my history now. ciaoz peeps.
7:30 AM
i started to love my skin more and more after seeing it for so long. i mean i cant take my eyes off from my computer screen. haha. its true ok. i'm not lying here. hehe.
i know i shouldnt be blogging now cause exam is like tommorrow. hehe. teach my bro with maths. haha. i'm kinda good at them if i really put an effort to try. hehe. tomorrow, eng exam. ok. i sucks at eng even though i blog here often. sigh. whats the use. i mean i usually get bottom line marks for eng. how bad can i be. sigh.
i wanna end here. gonna study my history later. hopefully i will study it and understands it. haha. hope you peeps likes my new skin. ciaoz.
before i forgot, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAKEEM.
7:50 AM
ok. i'm totally stunned about this thing. i went to a guy's blog. i dont know him at all. really. i dont know who. he's a total stranger to me. i saw his link through mable. so i read all his 4 post. and i'm shocked. totally speechless. cant believe with what i'm reading. cause all he wrote was like its as if the he talking about me. i thought its was my ex bf blog. cause what he wrote its the same thing that had happened between me and my ex bf on the week we broke off. ok. who knows he has one in the first place. but i conviced myself its not his. and its truly not his blog totally cause its happened different date and day. lucky. =)
phew. what a close one. but the entries he wrote its like hitting on the nail. i mean its EXACTLY the same thing. i cant believe it. OMG! now, i understand how bad i've treated him during we together and after we break up. omg. i cannot say anything now. dumb speechless.
ok. shall forget about it for now. or can i forget it. sigh. i want to eat now. i'm hungry. hehex. have a good day.
7:30 AM
hi peeps. just woken up from my beauty sleep again. i slept for about 2 hours plus. hahax. feel energised after i wake up. WOOHOO!!!
aniway, my pimple is active again. its growing even bigger. omg. but this time, i learnt my lesson and just hack care with it. i really hack care with it. well, not totally but at least i've TRIED not to touch it or whatever.
exam is coming in 2 days. omg. time is tickling so fast. tick. tock. tick. tock. exams is just next week. omg. and i got the time to blog. omg. i'm slacking again. i cannot take it.
well, i wanna end here. i've got nothing to blog no more. so take care and good luck for the EOY peeps. ciaoz.
12:30 PM