10:00 AM
i woke up quite early just now to get ready to follow my sis for her family's day. was reluctant to go but she said that it was too late as she already bought another ticket for me. it was held at the fort canning park. honestly, i didnt know that fort canning park is near to dhoby ghaut mrt. haha. i'm totally outdated. -_-" there were alot of children which is no fun to me. there were these 2 guys who actually attracted my attention throughout the day. one guy is still a teenager, wearing a green and black strip shirt and a guy who is around the age of 20 plus. both was quite good looking somehow. no guys at there had actually make me kept on staring at them. maybe not my luck i guess. haha.
then we went plaza singapura. my sis bought my bro a present as today is his 28th birthday. omg. he's old. haha. saw aaron along the way. and saw kim hock and his friend again. both didnt saw me. is it my luck that i keep on seeing kim hock nowadays? even in school, i kept on seeing him and i have to wave at him either hi or bye. eerrrkkk. i took 64 home. saw zhen hui and her bf when i'm inside the bus. i was exhausted so i felt asleep on the bus trip.
Love is always a good thing
no matter how much it hurts.
Even after it's over,
even through the pain,
anyone who has ever really loved
will tell you that
they never regretted a second of it,
no matter how much it hurt in the end.
And if you tell me differently,
I will tell you that
you were not truly in love.
thats all for today.
ciaoz.
5:30 PM
**another tiring day.
i'm taking this chance to blog since sharin is having a fever and he is lying on his bed, resting. muahaha. serve him right. XD
sports day today is alright except for the fact that the track would stain your skirt or pants and the sun is scorching hot and facing directly on us, making us perspire.
anyway, after the sports day, anis, nura and myself took bus 156 to go to sengkang to eat and all. fiza went to meet her "close friend" and left us all alone, stranded. haha. anyway. i know its like so far from the sports complex. and it took us about one hour plus to reach there. we were so tired that we slept during the 1 hour bus trip and i was the last one to wake up.
then went esplanade. okay. we were like traveling to every end of singapore i know. haha. then we sat at a sheltered place as it was raining heavily. talked and gossiped about ALOT of stuff. shockly, instead of going home by mrt like i always do, we walked all the way home. can you believe it? it took us about 2 hours to reach home. so long. haha. we joked and laughed while making our way home. saw kim hock on the way. he was biking with his friends while using the the phone. blur. we sent nura home by accompany her waiting for her bus near the kallang mrt. the trip is making me tired and also my whole body weak now.
i dont want to go to school tomorrow. i dont want to clean the classroom. and i know tomorrow will be boring though it is the last day before term 3 starts.
tired.
boredom.
they do kill us.
8:00 PM
*another new skin. another boring entry
i've just done a new skin. okay. warning. its TOTALLY simple. i'm bored with my own design that its always have a picture in every skin i done so i'm trying a new style. XD
no new skin for this blog though. i dont have any interest to change the skin. and i havent get bored with the skin yet.
tomorrow, i'm having my sports day. its all the way at bukit timah there. i wonder why they wanna go that far for just some event. for the first time in my life that i didnt took part in any event. i'm lazy and i dont want to run anymore. it just bored me. (:
i gotta go.
boredom kills.
8:15 PM
**whats wrong with me yesterday?
sorry to those people who i've shown my bad attitude towards to. i wasnt myself yesterday night. i cant imagined that i actually cried over it after i've seen something. how stupid can i be. i should be happy with myself and with what i've got. i shoud be happy for him also. why should i be dissapointed when he doesnt mention my name when i thought he would? i give up. i dont know why i kept on waiting. i dont wanna care about it anymore since he doesnt even think about this. i just wasted my time and concern over this matter.
sweetie, call me later alright? to tell me about the details. sorry about this last minute planning. and yeah. i do miss you.
btw happy birthday to syukri yesterday. sorry that i didnt texted you. but i asked haiqal to do that yesterday on my behalf though. hope you have received it. happy birthday to hidayat today. be happy always alright. though your "first love" doesnt accept you, doesnt mean you have to give up with other girls around you, you know. XD
it's so weird, you know?
how we always inevitably find ourselves
wanting to run back
to the ones we used to love,
for some reason thinking
it would work out differently
the second time around ):
i'm off.
breakfast ready.
10:30 AM
***today is officially a bad day for me.
firstly, i didnt get the chance to go to the battlefield trip due to waking up late. though my mum tried waking me up but that doesnt work. i was too engrossed with my dream actually that i nearly forgot about my trip. haha. who cares about the trip when your dream involves some hot guy became your special someone? haha.
i showered like twice in the morning as i forgotten that i have showered earlier in the morning till i finished my second shower then i realized it. how stupid.
but my day became better when i met nura at boon keng mrt as we are gonna watch a movie. yeah. her treat and thanks babe. watched over the hedge. honestly, its not even funny i tell you. the guys behind us are the ones who actually make me and nura laughed cause they laugh so loud that i kept turning back. haha. nura told me that one of the guys are cute. well, i didnt have the chance to look at him though. gosh. one guy wasted. -_-". then we chilled at esplanade. alot of hot guys there. even nura get excited over it. i conclude that i should go there often with my gf on weekend. weekend=hot guys are around (: went home at 7.40pm and i saw rasheed[achi boy] and tasha on the way home.
i gotta go.
this heart ache.
10:00 PM
*new songs updated. new long entry written.
yeah. just now, i had my NAFA test. i did alright. 3 As, 1 B and 1 C. i got a feeling that i would get another silver this year due to my 2.4 km run. i getting worser timing for it each year i felt. the same problem occur to me again that for every shuttle-run i ran, my ankle would ache.
i passed most of my subjects. i failed both my combined. no grade A for me this time.
english = C5
malay = B4
e maths = C5
pure geog = B4
F&N = C6
comb. sci. = E8
comb. human. = F9
i bought hidayat's present yesterday with nura along. we have more problems with where to go and buy the present rather than what to buy for him. haha. then we went bugis, i went for my mini shopping again. i gonna be bankrupt soon i guess. and we went to take neoprint. the pictures we took is nice and sweet. haha. i love those pics (:
i'm having another battlefield trip tomorrow. i gonna go, hoping that it would be better and wont dissapoint me again. some of us gonna bring the sec 2s students to those historical places and we gonna be the guides for the day. i dont want to be chosen though as one of the guides cause i'm not good at talking to crowds. after that, nura gonna treat me to watch over the hedge. my birthday treat she said. she's sweet. thanks nura. i love you alright. i gonna buy you something for your birthday in thailand as i promised you so.
i cant wait for the thailand trip. well, i got my kayathire with me. i'm happy and excited over it. i cant wait to sleep on the 5 star hotel bed. fuyoh!!! haha.
i miss my sweetie.
i'm tired.
off to sleep.
4:00 PM
harlow to all my peeps (:
i feel like updating since i'm totally bored, surfing. i have also updated my music playlist. i really love this song, "For You I Will". omg. its like so sweet. hear it if you want. well, as you can see, today, i got no school as today is the marking day for our exam. so yeah. i gonna stay at home all day unless there's anyone who wanna ask me out. anyone?
i'm not gonna do any new skin these days since i got no mood to search for stuff and i got no time and i'm pretty lazy to do them. so dont expect any new ones from me.
anyway, i get to know this new guy due to that he added me up in friendster. then we chatted through msn then i asked for his number. why is it i'm the one always make the first move. haha. then he called me and we talked. omg. he somehow has the same character as me except that he doesnt talked much. he played the guitar and sang while talking to me. omg. *melting* haha. the first thing i see in him is that it reminds me of my sweetie cause he somehow has the same hairstyle like him. haha. a big turn off to me about that new guy is that he LIED about that he doesnt have a gf. wth. and i was the one who kept going on with the conversation. eeerrkk.
dont worry sweetie, i still love you no matter what happens (: i hope you love my yesterday attitude towards you alright. i dont know what came over me actually. but for sure, my love you is growing each day. hope that i get to meet you this friday.
i gotta go.
boredom.
12:00 PM
i've just finish bathing. i feel so refreshed now. met up with my dearly sweetie just now. yeah. my special day at last has come by. i've been waiting for it for quite some time. haha. my 15th birthday to be specific. well, actually not much difference between the age gap of 14 and 15 cause i still feel the same. haha. saw sahjahan and asri along the way. all of them like giving me second looks before recognizing me. funny. am i that different wearing that kind of clothes just now? only they have the answer to it. okay. i know i'm crazy today. and i'm happy too (:
thanks sweetie for all the gifts that you gave me just now. yeah. i appreciate it lots. actually, whenever i'm with you, i always feel like its my birthday. so how old am i gonna be then? haha. funny. i really love you alright my sweetheart.
anyway, thanks to those people who wished me happy birthday. either by sms or testimonial in friendster or phone call or msn, i really glad that you peeps actually remember my birthday. im really happy that you peeps somehow care about me. yeah. i love you people many many. haha.
i'm tired.
off to wonderland.
no more special day for me tomorrow):
11:40 PM
yeah. i've just reached home from shopping with the girls just now. woohoo. its fun being with them till my legs are so tired from all that 5 hours of walking. bought myself three things. i shouldnt mention on what i bought here since my sweetie gonna read this blog of mine. =p one of the clothes, i got to wait till saturday then i can collect it since there's no size for me. anyway, that shop owner is nice and nura find him handsome somehow too. saw hafizah and mastura while shopping around. well, i dont really feel the satisfaction of that shopping cause i felt that i bought so little things. cant be blame since i only got abt $60 to shop only. XD
sorry to zubaidah that i dropped your phone just now. accidentally babe. blame it all on nura. its all her fault for giving me a sudden shock. haha. never mind. its fair i think since you stepped on my shoe ribbon.
at last, exams are over. i know i gonna flung alot of papers. due to that i didnt study thoroughly and i'm lazy to really revise. yeah. i know its my fault. you dont have to comment about it okay. haha. (:
i'm bored here.
update more tomorrow perhaps.
ciaoz.
6:15 PM
i hate it...
when i started to reminisce about the past
i know i should have move on with my life
i know i just make things more complicating.
i hate it...
when someone have their hopes on me too high
where i know i cant achieve them.
its not that i got no confidence on myself
i just dont want to make them dissapointed.
i hate it...
when someone expect me to change so fast
give me some time for me to change on my own
cause i just need to adapt to new things.
i hate it...
when i give a great impact on someone's life
where i have make their dreams come true
and i would just leave them all alone.
i'm sorry to those people
who i've given them such a hard life
where i have dissapoint them in the end.
i'm truly sorry about it.
no matter what, i still love my sweetie (:
*thanks yayat for the present*
4 more days to go for my special day.
2 more days to the end of exam.
1:40 PM
i've just finish watching one of my favourite teenage drama. and i cried. haha. the story is so nice. its about the girl's best friend snogged her boyfriend. yeah. betrayal thing again. how sad.
anyway, going out later with parents. buying some clothes for tomorrow outing. i'm going malaysia you see. not sure where though. haha. was forced by my mum to go. maybe cuting my hair too. YEAH!! i've been waiting for this day to come. i wanna cut it short. i'm sick and bored with this long hair of mine. and i wanna have my old fringe back. haha.
i was planning to study and write some notes on F&N today but i guess i'm not really into the mood of studying. and also, shafiq asked me to help him to do some punk rock skin for his blog. haha. shafiq, i'm lazy and i'm not into that mood of doing skins recently. i may or perhaps, do it. XD
i'm waiting for dad to come home cause he buying some food for me to eat. and mum didnt cook. yeah. i'm quite hungry right now.
i miss my sweetie. i cant wait for saturday cause i'm going out with him. its been long since i went out till night. i may be meeting him on this tuesday too. okay. sorry sume, hafiza and nura. i know i told you three that i'm not meeting him till exam over. but i guess i'm just wrong again (:
i'm going off.
boredom always kills me.
5:00 PM
i've just done another skin. yeah. i love the pic. awwww. to me, its really sweet. it took me nearly 4 hours to complete it all as it has been a week since i've updated my blog and done any new skins.
i've been having exams the past few days. some honestly, i flung it. haha. i do badly for SS though. thats what ms kam says. never mind. i know i wont do well in humanities anyway. cant wait till F&N exam then after that, i could slack more than now(:
sunday, i would be going to malaysia with my mum. luckily monday is malay exam. so yeah. i dont need to study. hehe.
i feel sleepy suddenly.
off to bed.
12:00 AM