i've been a bad blogger. i dont have the time for blogging anymore. been busy going out with people either studying or just window shopping. expect this, when my O LVL is coming which is another 1 month and two weeks to come. oh crap.

today is our 3rd month. seriously, i kept forgetting about it but thanks to roy yesterday that he saying about today so yeah, i remembered it thank goodness. i'm such a bad girlfriend i admit. so the paragraph below meant for him.

i have never felt this way before. i'm being totally honest here. not awal, haiqal, sharin nor elfie ever get to see what i am right now. i bet you that they have been waiting for this part of me to come out and you're such a lucky guy to get it. however, i hope you wont dissapoint me. i can see that you're trying to become perfect boyfriend for me though your jealousy is like super high but you dont have to be as the only thing you should do is just to put a little more trust on me. i swear i gave you all my trust like even when i jealous, you dont even know that i am. forgive all my wrong-doings for this past months. no matter, lets keep this relationship going for long aite. && i sayang you (:

oh shit, i become so mushy. eeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkk......

anw, yesterday was faiz birthday so happy birthday faiz. after so long, i guess you're waiting to be officially 16 right? HAHA! its been awhile since i met you, so yeah, should go out with you one day. good luck for your O's. hope you get into a poly with your ideal course. it is so funny that i have a crush on you, and you do too on me last time, but we just keep quiet about it. but whatever about it, its the past. hope you're happy with your life and go find a gf after O's.

i'm off. i'm thirsty. water anyone?

If Only You Know
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