i've been a bad blogger nowadays. yes, i only updated here every friday which is pathetic. i've been busy with school especially. school has been tiring eversince june holidays are over and you know what, prelims is coming. shit.

i just had my part B practical for F&N just now and i was the muffin people. i reached home at 6pm. yes, bloody F&N took my precious friday away. never mind. there's always next week. oh ya, on monday, i'm going to have my malay O LVL LC which starts at 4.30pm. another day, of going home late. this is not getting any better for me. being sec four is torturing ):

hazmi called me out of the sudden just now. i was suprised seriously. after of not contacting each other like around 8 months or so, he called me up to ask how i was doing and stuff. thanks for the calling . its been great, catching up times with you although we only chatted like around half an hour and i didnt talk that much. fyi: hazmi is one of sharin's [my ex] friend who we used to hang out together last year.

sadly, i've been talking to myself alot lately. proof: three gf of mine had noticed that recently and told me. i guess i keep alot of things to myself and i only told kiwi about this since he sit just next to me every school days. i just dont want to let my emotions take control of me, thats the reason i dont wish to elaborate more in here and tell anyone around me yet. i realised that it is a fact[hint:read my previous post to get what i mean], it is the truth, something i have been avoiding all this while and it just hit right on my face. now, i am truly letting go of it all. whats the purpose of me _____ when i get this same shit again. thats not what i expected after we _____. i had think it through these past few days and i can see that there is no point of thinking about it when in the end, i wont understand it all.

i'm off. its a long one after so long.




the more we compare our differences, the more we're getting apart

If Only You Know
8:30 PM