seriously, i dont know myself anymore. i've change negatively. i thought doing all that wont affect me. i thought i was numb to all the pain and no more late night worries due to the break-up but i was wrong. i feel more guilty hurting someone's heart and keep on lying to someone else. do you think i'm that bad? sorry for the things that i've done to you. i hurt you more than i thought i would and more than i know but some things are just beyond my control. sharina stop relying/blaming on fate now. i know i can do some thing about it like i should tell him now, from the start but i dont think its the right time. so just stop asking me to do that cause i will repeatly say "its not the right time yet"

its been awhile since i've updated and that was like one week ago. i dont think blogging is my thing anymore. lets see how it goes later on for this blog.

i'll be out tomorrow again. when can i stop this and start concentrating on my studies even more? only god knows. XD

thats all for now.

If Only You Know
11:30 PM