i'm not in my mood
&& my thinking alot is up again.

this week have been a torture to me. studies, elmo and even, my relationship with bayang-bayang are not in the good terms. just say that lately everything around me have been cruel to me and i dont take it positively.

firstly, studies, i'm like way lagging behind. seriously behind in everything. teachers are complaining about my late work or not handing stuff or not studying hard for class test but all i can do is just laugh it out loud and tell myself, there is still time to do/catch up with them. i'm in my self-denial mode even though

MID-YEAR IS NEXT MONTH,
PRELIM IS DURING JULY
&& O LEVELS ARE COMING UP ON OCTOBER ]:

secondly, for elmo, i try to be there for him but seriously, its like i'm nowhere to be seen to him and my efforts are like worthless cause he is not with there for me back. even waiting for me for 15 mintues, its such a drag to him. wth. he should have waited i know.

lastly, for bayang-bayang, if you think like i'm taking advantage of you, go on with your life and go find other and better girls. they are worth something more than being with me. i'm so sorry for making friends with you. if i didnt, all this wont happen. its my fault and not yours so dont keep on blaming yourself. i will still be your friend no matter what but i'm not gonna call you and i'm not gonna meet you that often like what i used to do so yeah. we're still friends but for now, give me some time alone. i seriously in need one.

i'm off.
toilet break XD

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