i've been running alot back to the past.

i'm hearing songs that reminds me of aeris and that fucked up guy. i dont even know why i'm doing all this. the fucked up guy was the sweetest memories i had but sadly, he make it such a bad memory to think about though the pain doesnt hurt me any longer whereas for aeries, i'm totally dissapointed with myself cause whatever things i did to him, is all the things that the fucked up guy did to me then. yeah. its in the karma thingy. even though i saw him with another girl and it hurts me so bad to see them together, i still blame myself for hurting him. i cant forgive myself till he make friends with me back.

i know i'm thinking too much.

anyway, elmo and i quarrelled again over the same matter yesterday. seriously. i'm tired of talking and defending myself about the same thing over and over again. my dear, you're my only one and no one else matters. [:

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