**2 more days to thailand trip

two new guys is on my boyfriends list. gosh. both of them are hawt. and both can sing. awww. how cool is that. how i really wish one of them is REALLY my boyfriend in real life. FYI: my boyfriends = my idols. LOL!

anyway, gonna meet my sweetie later. i can only spend like 4 hours with him for today as i got to be home by 7pm as today is my parent's anniverasary. and the whole family except sharin, will be dining out for dinner together. this gonna be the last time, i'll be meeting him before my trip to thailand. and i cant even contact him during my stay there. sigh. meeting nura on monday. which is tomorrow obviously. gonna chill at esplanade again and talk about some personal stuffs. talking to her has always been this great. (:

♥ this part may sounds as if i'm angry, frustrated and all but i'm actually not. i'm just writing what i feel. btw he do sucks.♥

to kimmy, you think that i dont know that you're talking about me in your profile. hey boy. grow up. its been half a year since we went our own way. just move on about it and accept the fact that i no longer need you nor like you in my life anymore. i tried to be nice, i tried to befriend you back but you just give me the cold shoulder. fine. fine. nvm. and ever since that incident that you just dont want me to be your friend, i've been staying out of your life. and its been two months since then. and now, you even look down on me. wth. you're the one who used to be crazy over me. but now, you're just being childish. why did i ever tell my friends that you're nice and you dont deserve the way how i treated you then. why did i wanted someone like you in my life. sigh. no. no. i'm not regretting. i just dont understand. perhaps you still like me but you're just denying it . or you just really hate me whole-heartedly for the fact that i hurt you so much then. this time i'm not gonna apologize to you HERE and AGAIN. i just dont care about it anymore. and no matter how many times i apologize to you, you're still doing that to me. so yeah. whatever.

i gotta go.
shower time.
toodles`

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