my favourite drama at suria had just ended. i get to see my idol. as usual, its fauzie laily. he's still looks so cute with the thick make up that was applied on him. haha. and i come here to blog since i got nothing left to do while waiting for his texts.

met up with my sweetie just now. he cant make it for tommorrow so he change it to today. luckily he texted me in the morning while i was reading this book about teenagers and stuff that was related to it. cause i REALLY take my time into getting ready especially if im going out with him cause i have to pick certain type of clothing that really suits me and to his liking. haha. well, spent about 4 hours with him just now and was like pretty short cause time past by so fast when you're with someone special. do you all think so? haha. i was having my moodswings just now. gosh. the earlier part when i was with him, i went all quiet and it worries him ALOT i know. he kept asking me why i was feeling them and i told him that my period is coming. well, i hope it is or else he thought that i'm just lying to him.

ps: i'm really open to talk with guys that is curious about all this. i'm neutral to it (:

then we went esplanade, i was more into myself somehow. and we did our usual stuff. haha. thats our secret. but its not a secret to some anymore cause most of my close pals knows about it as some of them are busybodies. haha. then i have to rush back home cause i promised my mum to go home at 8 plus. but i was late by an hour though. haha. i just <33333333333 my mum WAY better than my dad. except for the part when she is old-fashioned on clothes and her constant reminder on stuff. but overall, she's totally my everything. i just love her more than anything else. no one could replaced her. not even my sweetie.

she did a GREAT favour for me. she lied to my dad that she knows that i'm going out today when my dad called her. honestly, she didnt even know anything about this. i told you readers that this is a last minute plan. and even she, cant stand my own dad's nagging. it is worst if i'm the one who is hearing it cause i'm a short-tempered person as you readers knows it. everytime i'm at my front gate after a day night out with my sweetie, he would repeat himself and said that i'm not allowed to go out anymore or whatsoever. PLEASE! can you stop being bias. i didnt went out for the past 10 days and i even went home way earlier than my brother everytime i'm out. and i didnt even asked any of you for money did i? i never believed of asking my parents for money when i'm going out cause they never ask me to go out in the first place unless i really need the money in which i would tell them way ealier that i'm going out before the day itself and i know my mum is the one who will always give me the money when i need it and not my dad. i'm actually happy that i'm not using his money :D

he really doesnt understand me. fine. some may say he really care about me but can he just give me some freedom that i need. he cant expect me to stay at home all day right without doing nothing useful? even though he wanted me to do ALL the chores at home, but i'm still so lazy cause everybody is so lazy at home except for my mum when she's off from work. whats the use of me doing the chores when he doesnt even compliment or say anything nice when i got the mood to clean. whats the use of me studying hard when it doesnt make any difference to him that im still a lazy & useless lady just because i didnt clean up the house that normally a lady would do. im just sick of it. the feeling sucks. he thinks that guys are more superior than girls. i think he should think about it again. hello? the world is changing. cant you see it?

i shall stop here for now. i'm not in my best mood i guess. good night peeps.

If Only You Know
11:30 PM