yeah. been long since i've blog. been busy with the chinese new year rehearsal and all. its a great success for today. and its much better than the rehearsal. even mr dave told us so. and also sharin is not around at home right now so as you all guess it. i got to blog and surf the net the whole day.

WOOHOO!!

i was supposed to go home with kimmy today cause he went school but when he went to search for me and when he saw me, i just walked off from school when i saw him cause i thought he would turn back and walked behind me but instead he went in to school straight. and by the looks of him when i do that, he looked fed up with me. i was feeling bad. yeah. freak, i'm guilty.

and to make the matter worst, when i apologised to him by text, he asked me to go away. gosh. and i've apologised him like thrice and he still angry with me. i feel that i was totally giving him in. and this is what nura had to say, "you're not like the sharina i know cause when people said this kind of things to sharina, i know that sharina would talk back to that person rudely or even criticize that person back." freak. that sentence still twirling in my mind right now. thanks nura for the advice even though it doesnt help much with what i'm feeling. aniway, the text that he gave me was hurtful, and anyone would be angry with what he said but i'm just feeling regret and guilty instead.

i know i'm too soft hearted especially to him. i know he should be one doing all that like how i did to him just now instead of me. i know i cant always give in to him. i know lots of my friends hate him and i shouldnt stay in contact with him anymore. and i also know that he's no longer my bf. but i dont know why i totally become so weak and dumb when it comes to him. gosh.

aniway, gonna change my skin later. been long since i've change one. well, not that long actually i know.

exam coming. less than one more month to go. got to rush for revision.

i got to go now. toodles everyone.

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