ok. just now, i was having my histrory paper. omg. i feel pressurize. haha. due to time limit. and btw, i finish it like 15 mins before dismissal. haha. before doing the paper, have the feeling that i gonna flung it cause i'm like trying my best to memorize the points in my freaking brain and i just cant remember it as i got this STM [short term memory]. but after i've done the paper, i'm like feeling the other way round. haha. how confident am i. its either i passed with flying colours or i just pass. but whatever. i'm proud of myself thats the important thing now. haha. i know i gonna make it this time. haha. =)

actually wanted to go home early with nura today but instead went home at 5.15 pm with shuk, moonz and zuz. all my "adiks". haha. they keep calling me kak except for zuz. played soccer with them, raf and hl. haha. its rare that i would play it. so those who missed this chance to see me played, too bad then. haha. but i wasnt that intrested with playing soccer actually so you can see me like sitting down, standing up and walking everywhere at the street soccer court while listening to raf discman. i hate soccer. cant be blame. hehe.

raf kept disturbing me just now. kicked the soccer ball and it hits me. then he throw water at my legs, making them wet. never mind. i shall forgive and forget. haha. but i disturbed him back by calling "i" and "u" language. haha. only the malay peeps would know what i mean. for an example, "u tak baik seh, u buat i macam gini". haha. this language usually used by malay couples. its like you're sweet talking to each other. haha. its not funny i know. and for you peeps info, WE'RE NOT A COUPLE OK. haha. =)

and to that someone, i can see that we're not that close anymore. not like we're used to be. and i miss those time. i know that its exam period now and we cant see each other that often so i suggests that we take a break from all this. its not that i have a change of heart but i mean its like getting us nowhere. i've learnt that some things are beyond our control. if we were to be like last time, how good can it be. and how i wish its still is. we used to spend most of our time together. tell each other stories without fail. be there for each other. but ever since that 5 august, we're like drifted apart day by day without realizing it ourselves. maybe. or just maybe we better off being friends. sigh.

it hurts me inside to see you gone from my life when i know you mean so much to me. lets take a break for now. when the time is right, we will know whether we are meant for each other. we shall take a break till exam ended. starting from tommorrow onwards as it is the 2 month. its hard but i cant take it with all this. you dont know how it really feels. wanted to cry out the pain but i getting sick of those tears falling. it aches in the inside. and i know deep in my heart, i still need you. i still like you. i just dont wanna give up with this but i just have the feeling that you dont like me anymore. i dont care if you like other girls but i just dont want to waste your time and my time where you know that those high hopes for us are just empty dreams of mine. there's other girls better than me. take them as a replace of me in your heart. i can never be the best for you i know. being with you is the best moment in my life ever. you make me strong day by day with you beside me. making me change to be what i wanted to be all this while. all because of you, i've turn out this way now. sigh. hope you reading this. sigh.

sad huh my story. should be happy for the sake of shuk and some dudes. haha. tommorrow is maths paper 1. WOOHOO! only an hour paper. waste my time coming to school for about 3 hours. going toa payoh lib with nura tommorrow to do my art after the paper. haha.

ending here. got nothing more to blog. ciaoz peeps. good nite. for the 2e's, tommorrow for maths paper, YOU CAN DO IT! haha. XD

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