yawn. been feeling sleepy suddenly ever since my fav. korean show has ended. yawn.

to my surprise, my yesterday mood wasnt with me today. i mean those regretted stuff. those past memories. those times. those fakely smile i remembered. i mean if i were the old me, stuff that have been happening to me now would be different. i wont be that so studious. i wont be that happy. i wont be so close with the best peeps. i wont let you into my life and be obessed about you till now. importantly, i wont change myself to be all that i ever want myself to be. X)

i should be happy with what i got. and now, HONESTLY, i'm greatly over-joy. i mean i'm that HAPPY . i wont need to stand during those times when jealousy happen in a situation. i wont need to stand those hurting words he said to when he knew i dont meant it at all. i wont need to accompany him through-out the day even if i wanted to hang-out with my girlfriends. no one would said what i do is wrong. i wont need to listens to what he says anymore. sigh.

aniway. reach home at about 5.25 pm. went home alone in the end. all thanks to kenz. keep CONVINCING me to go back to school after we have lunch at KFC. keep on using your name to sort of forcing me to go back. i was in dilemma in going back early and get to see you. but ironicly, in the end, i listened to him. omg. =X

just because he want to see her, i got to follow him everywhere he went cause or else i will be alone. AAARG!! didnt actually studied when i went inside the library. instead i was reading about a dating book. hahax. and kenz couldnt study cause i keep on showing him att the stuff the writer wrote in there. see here. true sia. its good for you. see there. she wrote so nonsense. hahax. see what i mean. but i love the part where she wrote the tips about flirting do's and dont's. hahax. only kenz would know this. hahax. X)

then the 2e1 peeps wanted to go KFC then i told them that i've just went there and i wanna go home cause after that i wanna go out. and kenz said please lah. go lah. buy water only. still stubbornly i said no. then he so bad. say bye to me only. dont want to pei me home. HMPH! because of her, you become so. i dont know how to explain with one word. never mind. hahax.

actually, i'm supposed to go out. BUT i was lazy. my sis keep forcing me to go but i dont want i tell her. i feel so darnly tired. i dont know why. sigh. yawn.

i wanna end here. i wanna have my good night sleep. it been a week since i have one. hahax. ciaoz. good nite peeps. take care during the weekends.

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