to my surprise, i've cried AGAIN. been crying since yesterday. due to that same old reason.

fine. i shall stop all this tears flowing. no more of feeling sad and depressed. no more of blaming things at you when its all MY FAULT. i'm sick of feeling like this everyday. i would be cool. and take life easy as what shuk will always say to me.

on my way back home, i starting to feel happy again. cause for the FIRST TIME i got 3 solutions to our problem. i shall be more thoughtful i thought. i should be giving more and shouldnt expect too much of its return. thats what i learn from all this.

thanks to mahzuz. kenny. especially shukri and ashraf. for their wonderful advice, encouragement and all. thanks for everything. thanks for being there when i'm in need of someone. X)

mahzuz was there for me when i wanted to de-stress myself from all this sadness. he would listens to what i say when he know that i was sad about something. like yesterday for example. he accompany me to the playground just to see me play the swing. and the weather was so hot but still he was sitting on a bench near to me. even though the sun might burn us. XD

as for kenny. he would be there for me when i was bored. he would take photo with me just to kill my boredness. or would accompany me when i was lonely especially. people might mistaken us for a couple cause we're so that close. and i will always search for my kenny. hahax. XD. like example this morning and noon. he went to school with me. cause we both got the heritage tour. but he was late for 10 mins. hahax. and during noon just now, we took a pic at the ava room using ashraf hp. he's so cute in that pic. the face like very blur-blur one. XD

while shukri will always be there when i need someone to talk to and my motivation to be happy and also give me encouragement for studies. like example last night. we chatted about the problem. he gives me alot of advice. actually just one. hahax. XD. will always making me think about the positive side of life and all. asking me to forget the past and move on. and just now, he also asked me to study real hard to get that mp3 that my bro gonna buy me at the end of the year. and would always wanna cheer me up when i'm sad or angry at someone. X)

and lastly for ashraf. he would always be there when i wanted to cry. like example just now inside the ava room. he said just cry if you really cant control it any longer. and also, he always make me think twice about the decision that i make. making me think of others than myself only. and will entertain me when i'm TOTALLY bored. or got nothing better to do. he also will always make me laugh at stupid things. X)

thanks you guys. thanks so much. you guys are one of my happiness for me to live.

aniway, i'm flooding ashraf phone with my pics just now. i was bored inside the bus so started to take pics of myself. i was being my 3S [sharina shiok sendiri] moments just now. hahax. XD. it was fun i told you. forgotten to take pic with denes just now though. at least it makes my day cause some of the pics was real nice. and cute too. i'm self praising here. XD.

i shall stop here. i'm going out for dinner later. so i gotta change now. maybe asking my mum to buy me a new bag later. friday, maybe gonna cut my hair. wee. i cant wait. i really in love with CF new hairstlye. so nice. i'm jealous. hahax. XD. ciaoz for now everybody. tata!

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