sorry peeps. didnt update yesterday. i was kinda frustrated with my dad AGAIN. i mean thanks to him, i only use the comp once yesterday. i was angry with him during evening. just because i didnt closed the SWICH OF THE RICE COOKER. how lame can it be. i didnt know it was ON ok. i really didnt know. or should i say i'm absent minded that i forgotten to switch it OFF. i was busy scolding the two kids about the mess they make at the living room and they would complain it all to my mum by calling her each time i "bullied" them and i was busy with my homework and revision stuff. its not that i have a free time here. I'M STRESS didnt he know. and now HE'S MAKING MY MOOD WORSER. great. its just great. nothing could be better. i was so fed up that i cooped myself up in my room till night. didnt eat my dinner and all. till my mum came home and then i opened the door.


i was that angry that i CRIED so much yesterday. and to make the matter worst, i was still guilty to say something wrong to him on last fridae. i didnt mean it to say. really. i dont know what came over me and just let my anger out. and after saying all that to him, i starting to regret. regretted to show my anger out. since he didnt reply me, i cried till i fell asleep.


ok. let me straighten this out. i was ANGRY since last friday. i was not in my mood. i try to chill. as you know i'm kinda have a short term memory, i would always be okay by the next day. and i'm that okay yesterday til my dad criticized me and all. i was hearing to the MCR cd when i was angry at him and cried my heart out. and then suddenly, i felt all that sleepy. so i SLEPT 7.30pm till 11.45pm. and wake up for awhile and went to sleep back at 12am till 5am. so sorry to mahzuz that i didnt reply to your msg yesterday night. i was sleeping ok. really. my mum was so shocked that i slept so long. yup. due to the tiredness of crying, i NEED to sleep that long to recover my lost of energy of crying. XD


anyway, thanks to all the crying, i have flu today. great. i hate flu. AAAARG!! i'm kinda okay now i think. aniway, the second time when i slept, i have a dream. i was shocked when i woken up this morning. from all the dream i could have, WHY must i dream of him. WHY!!! its not that he's someone important to me ANYMORE. and since that dream, the whole day today, i kept thinking about him. strange. i thought i've start with the brand new me but then when i think again, i think i've just move on with my life but still hasnt start the new me. i never knew this would happen to me. sigh.


anyway, i'm burning new songs to my cd. hahax. its illegal but so what. i dont care. i'm EVIL!! MUAHAHA!! ok. i need to end here. i'm getting bored writing this post word by word. so ciaoz peeps. take care. and good luck to all for the final year exam esp. to sec 2E's! JIAYOU! in chinese they would say. hahax. XD

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