i'm still waiting.. waiting for you to say i need you in my life.. waiting for you to hold my hands and say i love you.. cause without your love, i wont be who am i right now..





i left *him at 27 july at about 8.45.. i ended the misery for us.. its not that i wanted this but i think its the best for us.. been crying since that day.. but today, i force myself not to cry over things that cant go back to what they were.. some may be shocked while others are happy for me or for him.. but i dont know why i've been so low these two days.. i know i shouldnt be sad.. but i just dont know why.. i got two good admirer that i've used to be wishing that they could be mine one day but when i get them, its like they meant nothing to me anymore.. missing those times when i'm with him.. haiz..

i know *you are better than him in alot of ways but he never hurt me so deeply in my heart like you did.. leave me alone to heal the scar that can takes me forever.. haiz.. i just need more time to dont really bother with such stuff anymore..




dont want to think those unhappy thoughts.. they are making me sad for just no reason.. my bro getting married tonight.. my house gonna be full with my relatives.. i got to pretend that i'm happy.. hearing those fake laughter that came out from my mouth.. seeing myself to fakely smile at people.. wanting to end here.. wanna eat.. so ciaoz peeps.. gud evening..

If Only You Know
8:58 AM