today akasha birthday so gonna wish him a HAPPY BIRTHDAY and may all his wish come true.. he so cute.. omg.. =p..




went home with him.. suddenly my feelings for him like gone.. i dont know.. i give up with all this stupid thinking.. its just wasting my time.. but.. haiz.. why is this happening to me AGAIN.. tommorow, gonna be our 11 month.. i dont want all this to go to waste..




these few days, having a feeling that i wanted to give up on the other guy.. no use of waiting.. i'm just being a fool.. i know i meant nothing to him.. but why i still keep on waiting patiently.. i'm just putting all the high hopes on him where i myself know that its not gonna happen aniway.. he meant so much to me.. can i just bear to let him go just like that.. everything that i do, makes me remind of him.. i put him in my FIRST priority instead of "him".. i try my best to let him notice how much i really appreciated him and how much i need him in my life but i'm still not the one in his heart..

people keep asking me why i wanna give up on him.. but i just told them that i dont wanna waste my time on thinking these STUPID stuff and i'm sick of thinking and i dont want my relationship with "him" to just go down the drain..

but down inside me, i'm just sick of pretending.. pretending to be so strong.. hating the world that revolves around me.. but.. no matter what i do or say, i just wanna let you know that i wanna let you go.. i know its hard for me.. but i think it is the best for me.. for him.. and for us..



tommorow, maths paper.. the 2e1 & 2e3 says the maths paper will give the formula but mdm tong never say anything.. how unfair.. =X.. just now, english quite difficult but cant finish within the time given.. i'm just bored so wanna end here.. ciaoz!!

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