Monday, January 31
hI.. yEsTeRdaY iS oNe oF mY saDdesT Day.. He sAyS i'M tOo cHidIsH!! wtF!! gOrT oNe tiMe i sMs hiM, aSk hiM wHy He LiKes Me tHeN He saId tHaT He LiKeS Me bEcOz He FiNd Me cUtE aNd LasT tiMe He tHougHt tHaT wE wiLl GeT aLoNg eaSiLy BuT tHe MorE He kNoE mE, tHe HarDeR tO gEt aLoNg.. tHeN hE aSk Me, wHy i sHo eAsiLly aCcepT HiM tHeN i saId tHe FeeLiNg coMeS tHeN i FiNd hiM oK LoR.. tHeN He sMs tHiS LeH.. sO HurtiNg.. "i tHiNk NeitHer oF uS iS sEriOusLy aBt tHiS reLaTioNsHip.. yOo tHiNk sO??" wHaT iS tHis!!! wE bEeN tOgEtHer fOr a Few MontHs tHeN nOw, yOo saId aLl tHiS.. No uSe!! aNd Of cOurSe, i'M a gaL wHo aLwAys HidE HeR rEaL FeeLiNg wOuLd sMs hiM ThiS BaCk "yUp.. aNd wHy iN tHe FirsT pLaCe, wHy yOo sTeaD witH mE??" HaiZ.. tHeN hE bLaMe HiMseLf fOr waT HaD HappeNed.. dOeS He kNoE tHaT bEcOz oF HiM, i tRy tO ForgEt mY cRusH beFoRe LiKiNg hiM.. tHeN i tRy tO cHaNgE FoR tHe BeTtEr bEcOz oF hiM.. cUtE-cUtE(HaiqaL) aSk Me tO bReaK uP witH hiM bUt i saId tHis tO hiM.. "i KnOe i wiLl HurT agaiN bUt He iS wOrtH tHe paiN.." Haiz.. i doNe sO MucH fOr hiM.. sTiLl He dO tHiS tO mE.. i HaVe NeVeR aSk yOo aNitHiNg..[[aNitHiNg!!]] mY FreNdz aSk Me tO bReaK uP witH yOo bUt stiLl, i jUsT igNorEd tHeM.. i'M siCk BeiNg LiKe tHis!! i HaTe iT!! iF yOo doN LikE mE, jUsT saId iT!! doN LeT My HeaRt gEt HurT agaiN aNd agaiN.. i suFfeReD aLoT wHeN i'M witH yOo.. bUt yOo sTiLl.. Haiz.. nO uSe oF sAyiNg aLL tHis.. yOo woNt uNdErsTaNd aLso.. i waNna gIb uP oN yOo.. bUt.. i reaLLi LovE yOo... HaiZ.. i doN kNoE waT tO dO!! iF mY LiFe gOiNg tO coNtiNuE LiKe tHis, i'M gOiNg tO bE saD aLL tHe tiMe.. mE waNna eNd HeRe.. wRitiNg tHis thiNg HaVe MaKe Me cRy.. aNd i waNNa eaT mY bReakFaSt.. bYe.. xx-sigNiNg oFf; hUrTiNg HeaRt-xx
If Only You Know
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