the last day of detention finally, its all over. its been a week that i've been serving it due to didnt come for the science retest on the june holiday. our detention was to stay back till 6pm to do self-study everyday. yes, including my precious friday. i was freaking happy when it all ends just now like those kids who is having their POP today. *screaming YEAH!!!!!*

yesterday, it was our _____ so happy _____. i love you, sweets [:

anyway, i had my malay oral on wednesday at bartley secondary. i screw-ed up. seriously, the question was easy. i was nervous and everything so i panic-ked my way through. when i read the passage, i can hear myself trembling and rushing to end it. every question, the invigilator asked, i merely aswered it with just two sentence and some half-way phrases. thats how bad i did. pray hard that i did well for my paper so that my marks will pull me up.

now, i feel like ____. dont ask me what is it and why i feel that way. maybe blame it on my menses for thinking such stuff or its just the bloody, cold fact. i denying it myself to believe it even. i'm not telling anyone for now till i got a solid evidence that my sentiment coincides with what it is happening right now. a hint: i feel this way before, exactly three months ago. enough, is enough. i dont deserve this at all.

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8:15 PM