okay. i was supposed to be offline long ago but i dont why i cant seems to just shut this computer off cause somehow its seems that i got something to do in the net when actually i got nothing to do.

i shall stop being pessimistic for awhile in this blog. i mean if the readers of my blog keep reading that i'm sad and all. its as if i'm trying to gain their sympathy with what i've went through when i'm just trying to let my feelings out. i shall try to pull myself together and be strong for everyone sake. even my sweetie told me so. (:

met up with my sweetie yesterday for the first time. he's hotter in real life and looks somehow like fauzie laily. woo. *bleah* to azuu. i kept laughing on the way to the cinema cause i feel odd somehow. watch the movie "fun with dick and jane". funny show. you all should watch it. and he treat me like everything. how nice is him you tell me. then we went suntec to play arcade. i'm like eeeeerrr. i no longer like arcade but somehow he forced me into playing car racing. fine. fine. i dont mind. and i won. haha. anyway, on our way to esplanade, we saw the fireworks. and i realised that he kept looking at me while i was looking at it. and i told him this, "i cant believe that i watching this with you cause i always imagine that i would watch this with my bf". honestly, i qouted this from "eiffel, i'm in love movie". hehe. then chatted there till 11.25 pm. reach home at 12 midnight. yup. my mum nagged at me. but whatever with it.

i starting to have feelings for my sweetie. and i no longer care about him. cause no use of wondering to the past where i know he will never come back to me. whats the use. he just wasting my time and time is precious. even though, how many time i said that, somehow i would still want him later. it gets on my nerve. but what can i do?

shall stop now. homework is piling up. got to do them. ciaoz.

If Only You Know
4:30 PM