i FLUNG my maths paper this time around. die. loss of 12 marks. due to not enough time. and its not plus with the mistake i make. eg. 46 divided by 2 is 13. how good is my calculation is. great. its juat a great day for me. AAARRGG! i'm dead. sigh. hopefully i would score at my maths paper two. hopefully. gonna work hard for the paper two. sigh.

sorry to haiqal. you think i want all this to happen. you think i'm happy with what i'm doing to us. you know how much it hurts with the decision i make. it tears me apart. i try to put a brave front just now. try to be strong infront of you when i see you. do you know that my heart is empty when i decided to let go of you. no more of the love and the care for people around me. i lost hopes on them. its like there's something missing in my life and now, i'm trying to figure it out was is that something when actually deep inside, i'm know whats missing. nothing can cheer me up anymore. i love you alot. really. i'm not lying. i was force to do this. try to understand me. i think we need some time alone. we should think whether this relationship is working out. sigh. i understand if you're not gonna talk to me tommorrow or even be angry with me. i dont blame you. but i hope we would still be friends or even better be god bro and sis like last time if we find that we werent meant for each other. sigh. gonna miss you. sigh.

ending here. not in my mood. good evening.

If Only You Know
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